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ok Im a bit of a goof ball this is true I dont take life too serious but I dont take it for granted either - thats why I quit - finding you guys has been a game changer for me and I just wanted you to know whats going on behind the scenes I have spent the best part of 4 months with you guys and it has changed my life and you are a massive part of that and I feel I can share this with you. Some may wonder why I spend quite a bit of time on here and I will tell you, i am a live in carer and I have to spend 7 days with a person who has severe disabilities, clinical depression and learning difficulties, I want to try and explain it without crossing any confidential barriers here. i have been in this job for 1 year and he loved the fact that I was a smoker when I started as if he could he would love to be a REBEL in his eyes and would be a smoker when I quit I went through withdraw whilst at work, I did not tell him I was quitting as I knew that he would put pressure on me to carry on (as in his eyes I was doing it by proxy for him), but I so wanted to quit for myself for 6 days I pretended that I was going out for a smoke to keep up the appearances and to take the pressure off me in those vital few days, then it was time to go home and I told him on the last day that I quit - it wasnt too bad but he said "that explains the crankiness" lol I then spent heck week at home I was dreading coming back to work for week 3 as I knew what I was in for - not just the job but the pressure he would put me under to continue to smoke - I needed help - I knew that I couldn`t do this alone under these circumstances and that`s when I joined a forum and found you guys sure enough the barrage came thick and fast and it was constant (he doesn`t know any better) every single day this continues to this day but I have built up a wall now and am not vulnerable to it but every now and then i come under an abusive and violent attack (for other reasons) and boy do I have to hold on tight when the hurricane hits me (metaphor) my walls are getting thicker to this and I take time out and play some games on here month 3 til now has been harder as I am going through a relationship break up so when I go home there is no respite this I have been working hard to sort out - life is never simple - I have my 19 year old niece living with me and had to make sure she was independant and ok before I moved on - this has now happening and I hope to be moved out in the next few weeks S/O is a social smoker who only ever used to smoke on holidays/vacation but as he blames the quit on the break up he resents it and has taken to under hand tactics to try and derail me so I take to the boards whilst at home for further distractions I have in recent weeks wanted to just say **** it all and throw it all away "is it worth it" all this hassle - why not just relapse I tell you why that`s not an option - because its MY life I decide what I do and don`t do and no other person is going to tell me any different I have over the last few weeks felt as though I was losing the battle (I was angry) but now I am on the other side and I have made it through I am moving on in my new free life - I have battle scars but I survived and I have all you to thank for that you all in some way helped me more than you will ever know and you do not know what it means to me to have you all here with me today This site, you people are changing lives not just your own, you are saving lives its not just a game here KTQ and stick to NOPE you will make it through :wub: "always look on the bright side of life" - my fav song I love paying it forward and want everyone to be FREE

red wine is definately part of your 5 a day (it has red grapes - its all good) edam cheese

Of course its a cat picture love you man - you take paying it forward to a whole new level cant wait to meet you in the summer when the UK reunion happens and I give you a big ole bear hug xxxx

lemon sorbet

veggie lasagne tastes so much better, courgette, spinach and mushroom is fantastic :)

sausage :rolleyes:

Hey we all quit smoking and we love our food junk or healthy it matters not - we just gotta eat! I will start with a food then the last letter of that food is the first letter of the next food ie Chicken........ nachos......... nice and simple - just like me ;) The first food is EGG

lol have you been on the sherry?

I will wave the flag for you Sue x

trying to jump a few carts ahead Andrew lol

well done jackie and you know you would have only of cheated yourself out of that nearly 3 months beautiful quit of yours - I hope you treat yourself to something special and the boys dont come back with too many toys lol

bumping for the guests as its a good one! Take no time to think about it guests - just jump its really not as bad as you think it might be you cannot turn back time and this is your time, your life.

how many times did we p*** you off Aine telling you that it would get better ;) your post makes me so pleased for you hun and congratulations on your promotion you definately are going from strength to strength xx

so much changing around you marti in 1 month and all for the positive congratulations you are doing fantastic xx

Roll call so far in no particular order: 1 Rain 2 Annael/leanna 3 Jenny 4 Scott 5 Babs 6 jimmy 7 Bonnie 8 Lisa/frez 9 Cher (Hockey Mom) 10 Jonny 5 11 Sarge purple dragon sausage 12 Bakon pink fur ball 13 Cristobal 14 Joe 15 gemzee 16 colleen 17 rez 18 tracey 19 Nancy 20 action 21 Doreen 22 suebedoo 23 petra 24 beacon 25 ava

up the concrete steps was a frog

I would like to like your post but I have run out of likes (no not really) ;)

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its all been a total waste of time - full stop! Time is something we cannot get back but it is something we can make the most of now

great attitude IAM- keep that up and this sure is your sticky quit! welcome to your non smoking free life :)

you see I did not know you were an oldpharte - congratulations :)

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we are so fortunate to have you on board with us but how many do we actually have? For new members (oldphartes) was a term for anyone quit smoking for more than a year and they stay and continue to pay it forward for us :)

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