MichelleDoesntSmoke

No. Its not. Thats why I havent given in. The addict says its ok. The rest of my brain knows its not an option. So far thats the part of my brain thats been winning. I am doing better

Herrrrrrrre!!!

NOPE NOPE NOPE $#%&@

Thanks everyone. I want to smoke so bad despite everything that was daid and everything i know. It will be a miracle if i dont smoke today

I made it to the train. I wasnt going to make it. I was planning to buy a single cigar at 7-11. Even as I read a heartbreaking story about a woman who died at age 39 leaving behind an 11 year old daughter. I was going to smoke. I made it past the 7-11 though. Dunno how. I am better now. Walked behind a woman smoking and breathed it in then wondered if that counted as a relapse lol. Considered asking her for one but didnt. Gonna stay closecto the board today. Hows everyone else doing?

I'm outta da shower after using my famed rose scented soap and this is whats going through my head... "Pretty...I smell Pretty...I smell pretty and witty like ROOOOOSE" (think West Side Story)

Wow. Great motivation friends, thank you. I'm going to read a few stories on WhyQuit that are hard to read. Thats helped me before. Then a nice healthy breakfast, a warm shower/makeup/lotion/nailpolish then a prettied up Michelle will be out the door to start her day, past the STUPID 7-11 and on to the bus stop. I know its not the 7-11's fault lol

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I've posted a lot of SOS's. Too many? IDK...I think most of us have a ton of SOS's at first...I'm still a baby 8 days into my quit, so its okay, right? I woke up after my sleep-a-thon with a bad craving. Reminded myself I don't smoke and shook it off. Remembered all the things I have planned today, out and about instead of hanging around the house. Then started thinking about that stupid 7-11 again. About how I *could* buy a pack on the way to the bus stop and smoke a few then throw it away...right...like I'd really throw it away. Actually I've done that before, thrown away partial packs of cigarettes thinking I'M DONE I'M DONE NOT EVEN ONE MORE only to buy another one the next day. Anyway....I couldnt come to this board and be dishonest, saying I didn't smoke when I did. And I don't want to come to the board and tell you all that I smoked. I don't want to smoke but I want to. Then I think well, I could smoke then just start my time over, you know, change my quit smoking date? WHY WOULD THAT BE OKAY???? Thats the silliest rationalization I can think of. Besides I have the coolest quit date....4/20....LOL. Please help me remember why I don't want to smoke! I've had the hardest time the last week but I've MADE IT. Why would I give up now, right?

Evelyn, how are you doing?

This thread is scary

NOPE...even though i want to. NOPE...even though I could if I decided to.....NOPE NOPE NOPE

Thank you!!! So are you!!! you quit the day after my birthday. Awesome. Yeah I'm gonna flood myself with water with lemon and start exercising again. I bet that the last thing I feel like doing is probably the best thing to combat the fatigue.

Oh great so I get U. One of the most difficult. LOL I guess I'll say Uvula. I love my uvula. haha

Welcome!!! This group is amazing. This can be your last quit!!! I am 48 and have quit over and over again...like you I quit sometimes for a year at a time. Anger always took me back so thats what I'm planning for now...a plan for when I get angry. My advice would be to think of what it was that led to you smoking again and build a plan around that. What will you do when it happens? Pick up the phone and call someone? Post on the board? Journal? All of the above? I'm glad you're here. Please stick around...you are worth it! Michelle

Oh and I got up and moved around a bit...drank a big glass of ice water then went out and sat it the sun....its Seattle after all and our spring has been playing hide and seek with us for weeks. You learn to appreciate the sunshine when you can get it. Anyway...after some water and Vitamin D I feel a bit better, though not normal by any means. Requested a doctor's appt online for a checkup. Waiting for notice of appt. Gonna tell her I quit and I just want a general checkup and smoking related disease screening. Time to take care of me.

Well I have only been quit for a week so I'm afraid of a gain coming. I've lost about 33lbs over the last few years.....the most recent loss is 15 (of that 33) I was stalled and bouncing back and forth in a 15lb range for a few years....anyway...I'm very protective of my weight loss so I'm being careful what I eat. Gonna lay off the blow pops asap and get back to the healthy diet asap. For me, food is like cigs or drugs. If I let my guard down for a moment for a "break" then usually I slip into a lapse that lasts a long time That being said, keeping off cigs is the most important thing right now.

Thanks Nancy, Ms. Keeperbie LOL ya its telling me to go back to sleep. I have stuff to DO though darn it. Sigh. I suppose I should listen to it, whatever it is. I'm losing weight too so I could call myself a big quitter AND a big loser!!!!

TY RunFree....I had the same morning ritual. i love the lemon water idea. I want to get off caffeine too, as soon as I feel stronger in my quit. Or maybe now...IDK. Maybe best to rip that bandaid off. Thank you Mike. you always have such helpful things to say!!!! As for Blow Pops....they are delicious madness. Yummy suckers with a bubble gum center. http://www.tootsie.com/candy/charms-blow-pops

Thank you everyone!!! Meathead...that song has been running through my head all day!!! LOL

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I keep posting wrong. Sorry about that! If we are really at -16 then my post should make it -17, right?

Hi Rob, nice to meet you. Please keep coming to the board....sounds to me like you're in danger of smoking again. Maybe not right away, but I'm afraid its going to sneak up on you!!!

I've heard of the Quitters Flu but I'm not convinced this is it because it hasn't been THIS bad until today, day 7. I've been concerned the last month or two about fatigue which is part of the reason I quit...worried about health. Today is awful though. All i want to do is sleep. I woke up at 7, laid back down at 10:45 and just woke up. I'm still sleepy and headed back to bed. Anyone experience this suddenly, a week in?

This thread is awesome. I need to exercise...I have around 60lbs to lose. When I had a gym membership I was a gym rat and I LOVED exercise. I was maybe 10lbs lighter than this. I want to get back to it. I don't have a gym membership but I know plenty of exercises i can do at home. I just need a very beginners plan. I do know of some yoga and pilates beginner videos...I need to get back to it. Maybe with an accountability partner, I can!!! I need to do something to work off the blow pops Anyone wanna start a beginners plan?