MichelleDoesntSmoke

....lemon squeezy. Welcome!!!!! I am on Day Two. We got this!!

This has to be it. It just has to be. I can do this. breathe breathe Day two and feelin fine

Gimme an N!! Gimme an O!!! Gimme a P!!! Gimme an E!!! Whats that spell? FREEDOM!!!

I work in a call center doing technical support so i can only have candy and gum on breaks and lunch :-(

Ty ty! Got candy yup. And gum. This is my first bgfReak at work. I got this

Tossed The last of my cigs. Here we go....

You guys are amazing. Ty. I am second guessing using NRT. I feel inspired to quit TODAY. I do remember just thinking how bad I want to smoke, then I got some news that got me super emotional and I thought "Its Monday and crazy at work. Maybe Monday isnt the best day to quit" then when I got the news, I convinced myself that between the emotions caused by the news and it being a busy Monday at work, I should "give myself a break" and buy 'one more pack'. Total Rationalization, justification and excuse making. So i think I will throw the rest of my cigs away right now and go for it. I will get on the board every break i get. I know u all have my back. Thank u. Will post when I get to work and toss them. Th

Welcome!!!!

YEHAWWWW WELCOME!!!

Welcome!! Your English is good! I bet everyone on this board can identify with the "lover broke up with me" feeling. I know I do. We can all do this. Stay close to the board. You have lots of support here!!!

Welcome Tina!!!!

Haha Teary...its perfect! Hilarious!!! Ty

I am planning to use the patches because i am never successful cold turkey....thought Id try doing it differently...idk

Hi Luke...welcome! I love this board too. So I have the same problem of having a hard time imagining not having smokes, even tho they are slowly killing me. I have such a strong compulsion to smoke that I smoke when I really dont want to and when I know I am somewhere where I cant smoke I feel trapped. I get the feeling that "somethings missing" even if I am not having a physical craving. Maybe this will help you, maybe it wont, but have you thought about getting downright ANGRY with the tobacco comanies?I mean sure, we willingly smoked that first cig, but they go out of their way to, and are sneaky about, making them as addictive as possible. Lets get FURIOUS and refuse to give them one more red cent!!!! My husband doesnt smoke and like your partner, hates it. I like the way you put it..."fair enough". For me, I am quitting almost as much for him as I am with me. Keep logged in as much as possible. It really helps. Michelle

Thank you...sniff sniff

...and an admition of defeat. I am armed with patches, lozenges, ice water and a new quit date of 7/22....day after tomorrow. I am getting tired of giving in yet I keep doing it. I understand its addiction, though, and am trying to stop kicking myself. I hope everyones doing well! Looking forward to catching up!!

NOPE. Effing NOPE. I'm gonna go make coffee but will NOT smoke

I'm way late, as today is winding down but, since I was so tempted not too long ago....NOPE!!! N O P E!!!! EN OH PEE EE!!!! I am going to bed smoke free tonight.

Day Three is winding up. Yep I got through the first of the icky threes. Been sleeping most of the day. Between the heat and (I guess) the Quitter's Flu I've just been listless all day. I read the post about how you don't just get off the Quit Train and it was very powerful. It was like that for me after I relapsed...I would hear the whistle of the train in the distance. I saw familiar faces whiz by but when they put their hand out to help me I couldn't grab it because that would mean I'd have to drop the cigarette in my hand. I had it. I was doing so well. Something in me cries for failure. As I said before I am a recovering addict. Drugs and alcohol call my name as much as cigarettes but not as loudly. I was bested by the 'Just One Monster'. It takes me down every time. Countless times, from countless quits. Even now, even as this quit has been easy so far....I find myself alone in the house, everyone is out, and I think about how easy it would be to go outside and smoke "just one". I have proven to myself over and over again that there is no such thing. I want to smoke even though I don't want to smoke. I am going to go take a cool shower and brush my teeth then smell my hair. That usually helps some! Its good to be back. I'm sorry I left you. Michelle

Oh honey...hugs and love...I am sorry I didnt see this sooner! How aee you now...or is it the middle of the night there, now?

12:01 am Pacific time so I am pledging a BIG FAT HAIRY NOPE before going to bed. Stupid Nicodemon keeps trying to get me but I am winning!!

Congrats on three months!! At 8 days I am in awe.be sure to treat yourself somehow!!

Almost home. Phew. With your help I proved that I am stronger than I think I am. Thank you. Day 8 is almost a wrap. Hope everyone has a great night! (Or morning if youre in the UK!!)

Hee hee I like that. I am in downtown Seattle...lots of people smoking....stinky!

I got this!