MichelleDoesntSmoke

Thank you! Excellent post. I am conufused by this line: "I know this is true from email, and from the time when Freedom's policies were different and relapsed members were allowed to rejoin" Are we not welcome back if we relapse?

Yes!! Wahoo!!! I woke up once in the middle of the night and didnt think of cigs till Id been up a while (HUGE accomplishment) Went back to sleep and when I woke up for good they WERE the first thing I thought of. But I shook it off faster than I have been able to do so far. Thats progress! I do believe its gonna be a good day! How is everyone this morning?

NOPE

I found a way home whete I dont go near the gas station after all. Yay. Almost home safe and sound

Warrior!!!! Pls dot give up! I almost did, several times today (Even had some hot flashes too!) I am making it and hope u r too. I hope you check in soon....

Hey my ticker says I've saved $9 and guess what...its right! I have $10 actually, in my wallet, right now. I'm going to squirrel half of it away. Once my paychecks start coming in (new job) I'll make it a habit of putting everything I would normally spend on cigs away for a special treat. For now, $5 is enough to make me happy. And I'm leaving my money home tomorrow so I'm not as tempted as I was today to buy some!

smelling my breath and my hair. Yay. I am gonna make it. Will go to bed early tonight....my body could probably use the extra sleep in order to heal more

thanks Cheri. Yes I loved it...at least I thought I did...till I smelled it in my hair and clothes at the end of the day. I take the bus and I'm not sure how else to get home but I'm feeling much much stronger now. I went in the ladies room and brushed my teeth furiously. I also thought about how nasty it would taste and smell after this long. Ugh. I remember when I started again the last few times it smelled so bad it actually made me nauseous. I never smelled the sour smell until I had been quit a while and tried to start again. Sour, icky...ugh Thank you. How are YOU today?

I overcame SO much this morning and even wrote myself a kickass SOS Pre Response yet when I looked at the clock and realized it was almost time to go home I started craving, thinking about how theres a gas station on the way home (Gas stations everywhere, I swear to God) "Just one more pack then we'll start over" "Just one more pack then we'll go with the NRT we have sitting at home" All excuses, I know. Made this mistake many times. But now I'm afraid to leave work. *sigh* I'm sure I'm being hard on myself when I think about how ya'll are thinking how needy I am and wow, how can she be craving AGAIN so soon....but the truth is I'm probably fine right where I am, eh? Its not *supposed* to be easy on Day 4

Thank you! I was just having another round of junkie thinking...this time thinking the only thing that could stop me from buying a pack on the way home was me. It wasn't like I'd have to wrestle a crocodile or anything. I could simply go buy some. Then I remembered how good I felt when I got to work and how grateful I was to all of you for helping me. I came back to read this thread and it was exactly what I needed. I still have a few hours before I Have to leave work to go home. Hoping I can keep the NicoDemon from taking over! xoxo Michelle

I've been drinking iced cucumber water all day and feeling grateful theres no junk here. I think if theres weight gain it will just be from bread and cereal, which I recently cut out of my diet. I had a moment of despair when I looked in the mirror just now but then I thought well, I look uglier with a cig in my mouth than I do with some extra weight!

Chocolate! OMG I want chocolate. hee hee

From an article on what happens to your body the first two days after quitting At 48 hours: Nerve endings start to regrow. ***********Ability to smell and taste improves***************************** Been eating like a madwoman

Here we go....?

darn. Hang on lol

How's it look on me? *swirls around*

Thanks you guys. Since I posted this morning I had another OMG I WANT TO SMOKE and part of what helped me get through it was the knowledge that I can ease up on myself when it comes to food, for the first week. HAHA You're right. I should focus on the most detrimental thing...which is the smoking. Everything will be better after that. hugs, Michelle

So I made it safely to work without smoking. I've discovered though that food taste better. I. Cant. Stop. Eating. I tell myself eating is better than smoking but I am suffering health effects from being overweight too so I can't go too nuts. At least the company doesn't have junk food. They have fruit, cereal, different kinds of bread for toast, things like that. I'm very lucky.

Yes youre right. This morning was pure obsession and romance. Sooooo glad I came here instead of smoking. Ty!

Hi Julie, I like how you made the home group connection. I would never miss my home group so I will not miss a day here. Thanks! Michelle

Ty Doreen. Unfortunately I only have a shower, not a tub. Oh how I would adore a bubble bath with candles and music. I am on my way to work but I prob shouldn't punch anyone there lol. I am so giddy that the craving went away as I wrote my SOS! I love this board. Not planning to leave again. Pls have a nice long soak in my honor

To Michelle: Please dont give in. You have three days smoke free. You can take a deep breath. Your mouth tastes good. You smell good. Energy coming back. Why are you craving something that will kill you? Think about mom and aunt judy. They both died from smoking related problems. Imagine telling Chris, Lori Jessa and Alex you have a terminal illness. Youre 48. No matter how old you feel, u are too young to die!! Be strong for them until you can be strong for yourself. Dont listen to the excuses that the Just One Monster is giving you. They are just that. Excuses.

Thank you all! I am going to spend my breaks at work walking! U guys are amazing.

To me: you can take a deep breath. Your mouth tastes good. You smell good. Energy coming back. Why are you craving something that will kill you? Think about mom and aunt judy. They both died from smoking related problems. Imagine telling Chris, Lori Jessa and Alex you have a terminal illness. Youre 48. No matter how old you feel, u are too young to die!! Be strong for them until you can be strong for yourself. Dont listen to the excuses that the Just One Monster is giving you. They are just that. Excuses. The craving is going away. After going on three hours its going away. Not bad! I am going to turn this into a pre respond SOS.

I dont want to be a smoker!¡!