MichelleDoesntSmoke

I fell asleep at 8:30pm. Now its 12:35am and I am awake and cant go back to sleep. Have to be up incfive hours!!!! Argh!

DENIAL= Don't Even kNow I'm Lying Lol!

DH and I were talking about that Sunday. Everyone got bit while wearing drab clothes, apparently

If I can stop looking at him, that is....

If I can stop looking at him, that is....

If I can stop looking at him, that is....

Judge you? Honey Im right there with you. Hes delicious. I love eye candy! Will post some for you tomorrow!! Still on the bus. Almost home. I may stay up an hour or so and revel in my non smokeyness. Tytytyty

I LOVE The Walking Dead AND Fear the Walking Dead. Woot!!!!

Hey Michelle. Here's another list for you.... Well it wont let me paste darn it. OK girl, go to your post from 5ish pm today, 10/13/15 and READ IT. Its a reply to babs on one of your posts. Get over it, woman.

and I'm so sorry to hear about the loved one dying from gallbladder cancer. Wow that's terrible. She's younger than me. And here I am scared I have cancer of another part of the body and I was seriously considering lighting up because what....because I had a rough day at my new job and am trying to handle a health scare at the same time? Please. I'm tougher than that. I know I am. If I light up, I will have to tell DH. I can't lie to him and if I don't fess up its lying by omission. If I light up, I will have to tell you. I can't lie to you and if I don't fess up its also lying by omission. If I light up, I will instantly wish I hadn't. If I light up, I will instantly find out that it wasn't what I wanted, and on top of that I have all the above to deal with. If I light up, I may never stop again. If I never stop again I may have to someday tell my husband, kids and sister that I am dying. Again, so sorry to hear about your loved one. I can't even imagine....

TY Babs. Tough love is awesome...at least the kind where you say "You need a reality check" is. The kind I can't handle is when someone says something like "you freaking dork, whats wrong with you? You stupid or something?" and calls it 'tough love' LOLOLOL. I didn't THINK you meant it to hit wrong, as I have had no other reason to think you are anything other than loving and supportive. Plus, I'm cranky. Go figure. LOL. Almost time to go home. I think I'll just curl up in bed and sleep the clock around. Cant smoke if you're sleeping. If there was a way, I'd have found it, trust me.

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You aren't a thorn in my side...this is why I post, to get a reality check. Or am I posting too much or something? By saying I need a reality check are you saying "I keep telling you this!!!!" lol

Cravings have been so strong ever since I got up. Not physical, but mental. I. Want. One. So. Bad.

They are getting better in frequency and intensity but are still often and strong enough to be uncomfortable and unpleasant. I'll go from being obsessed with wanting to smoke even though I'm not planning to smoke. Then suddenly half a hour later I'm like "Hey....where'd it go?" lol

When did the many-times-a-day cravings ease up? I know we are all different but am curious

NOPITY NOPE NOPE NOPE

Does anyone have any thoughts/input?

GREAT advice everyone, thanks. I made it through another day smoke free. I especially like happy's suggestion of expecting them to happen....instead of fighting the idea that I'm going to have them

I was notified by my doctor that I need to make a follow up appointment because one of my tests came back abnormal. It could mean a couple different things, but the big C is one of them and I'm scared. First thing I thought of was eff it I'm gonna smoke. As if cancer would be a good reason to smoke. I had a scare with a chest xray Friday that I didn't post about (Just cuz I had a busy weekend) I waited about ten minutes for the doctor to come in to tell me whether or not the spots that I thought I saw meant something. During that time I envisioned myself going off the deep end smoking and drinking (I'm a recovering addict) and just stopping trying if I was told I have terminal cancer. Having the same feelings now. I see her Wed to find out whats up. She refuses to give me any information via email or phone. So I'm left freaking out. If it was something harmless it seems she'd tell me via email. So again, I'm wondering if I have cancer and the first thing I think of is smoking, knowing its not the answer....trying to figure out why I want to so bad other than because I'm an addict and have been smoking for 35 years. Would love to chat privately with some women... M

The "Just One" Monster almost got me this morning. Thank God for responses to my SOS and a NOPE pledge. They saved me. Just One has ALWAYS taken me back to full time smoking. I am an addict through and through. I have never had Just One cookie, drink, drug, smoke etc. If you are tempted today please take a look at your past patterns and talk to us.

Tytyty. Much better. I am ofg to work and my resolve is back. I used my pretty smelling soap n shampoo. I brushed extra well so my mouth tastes wonderful. I will check in once I get there. Ty <3

NOPE....holding Evelyns hand. We can do this...

Youre both right. I have revamped my diet to lose weight and started exercising. I packed workout clothes so I could go to the gym at lunch. Then I woke up craving. Insane. NOPE. No way Jose.

Wow craving and romancing. Leaving for work soon. Was planning to buy a pack on the way to work. Help