MichelleDoesntSmoke

Ty...i borrowed this from babs signature..."Sure, you might want that one cigarette....but do you want the thousands that follow? There is no such thing as 1 cigarette..not for me, not for you" I will be walking out the door of my last appt in about ten minutes. Please send happy juju. I am going to play a Joel Spitzer video on my phone.....

Michelle is FREAKING OUT....

Scary cuz for the first time this quit I want to just not care. Dont know whats happening

:-(

Been in positions to smoke over and over again in the last few days.I can only take so much. Tempted. Tho i know it would be a mistake. Then why do it. Ugh

Thank you all! Yep the recruiter I met with bouggt me the coffee :) Then I had an appointment with my counselor and I told her I quit....and while we were talking about it my brain was telling me it would be a dandy idea to go up the street to the am/pm and buy a single cigar. After all, my brain said, u know that stabbing headache youve been having? Maybe its part of the nicotine withdrawal. If you smoke and it goes away, then you'll know. How funny is that? Then when she said to remember that relapse doesnt mean total failure, its a setback that can be overcome, my brain said see? Go smoke one. Just dont tell anyone. As if the gazillion times I tried that with my drug relapses actually work. It doesnt. So I will keep fighting and when I lay my head on my pillow tonight, day four will be over and I will be looking forward to day five starting tomorrow. Thank you guys for 4.5 days!

When I reach a year, will you buy ME a car? Please?

Porn? Wha...? *looks around* I was mentioned in a post! I think that means I am official! Yay!

Its a challenge. I dont have a vehicle so when I am home its easier to abstain. I went out a few times since starting this quit and made it home smoke free. Yay! I had a meeting with a recruiter this morning at Starbucks and as we were talking, my brain was going crazy saying things like "When the interview ia over I can go smoke!" Lol. I am on my way to my next appointment, happy to be smoke free. The longer I abstain, I can sense a separation forming between the URGE to smoke and the DESIRE to smoke. I keep getting the urge but I dont really have the desire to smoke, really. Sound familiar to anyone? At the bus stop a guy asked me if I smoke (probably wanted to bum one) I got to say "No, I don't smoke. I quit four days ago". That felt REALLY good.

Here....though I'm a newbie and don't know Bakon yet or know what s/he does with attendance logs. It will be fun to find out!

Congratulations on working through that bucket list!!!! I have quit caffeine a few times in my life (only to return!) Sounds like you are having a much easier time with it than I did. The last time was the worst...I had such a debilitating headache and exhaustion that all I could do for two days was lay in bed wanting to die. After that, I was free. And it was wonderful. I could kick myself for starting again. I'm going to quit it too, but I'm going to wait until I'm on solid ground with this quit. Maybe in a month or two. I hope you're doing well today. Don't give up! Think about this...you have no addictive substances going through your body AT ALL. That is AMAZING. So celebrate with a cup of non caffeinated tea or something. Here, I'll clink teacups with you....**clink** M

Are you KIDDING me? Wow. Go, me. Look at my ticker though. Where's my $33????

Thank you all. It was SO nice to wake up to these messages, especially when I'm craving. I don't WANT to smoke. I really dont. The longer I go without it, the more I can't deny that its icky, stinky and self defeating!!!! But the urge is still there. Weird. Yes its a beautiful smoke free day even though its raining (it IS seattle after all) I hope you all have a fabulous smoke free day as well!!!! Mwah!!!!

Congratulations!!!! A year is HUGE!!! Thanks for showing the way. If you can do it, so can I. Thank you. Celebrate YOU today! You're amazing!!!

NOPE

Thank you all. Goodnight from Seattle!

Oops i meant"The ultimate weapon for recovery is the recovering addict"

Julie: tthe ultimate weapon

Great job! But whats a Rhodiola?

I kicked drugs and alcohol, now I am kicking nicotine, next I am gonna drop some weight and become a running fool, yo. Is there a Scottish equivalent to "yo"?

Thx u guys! El Bandito u made me laugh thx. This board is no joke. U guys are hard core!!!

Thank you both. I am feeling better, especially after listening to some Joel Spitzer (gonna listen to some more after this post) I am going to stay home. Hopefully they understand. And if they dont, they are just going to have to deal. I know its best for me. Besides this cough of mine is hanging on from a cold that is long gone. Its raining out and I think it will do me good to stay dry and warm, reading lots of stuff about quitting! You guys are the BEST!! Mwwwahhh!! Thank you!!

This is exactly what I needed to read, exactly when I needed to read it. Romancing...thats exactly what I have been doing. Its exactly why I go back to smoking, time after time. Thank you Chrys. U may have just saved my quit!

This is the age old dilemma....for me, at least. I hesitated to post this because I know all the reasons to not smoke...I dont think anyone could say something that I didn't know, or hadn't heard before. Then I thought about how I haven't had a successful quit yet, so obviously what I've been doing so far hasn't worked. So, on to trying something new. I took a little nap and woke up craving a smoke. That isn't new. My cravings are always strongest upon waking up. I am leaving in a few hours to a 12-Step meeting where a couple of friends of mine are celebrating sobriety birthdays. So many of those friends smoke, and smoking is so accepted in my recovery circle, that I am concerned about being able to stay smoke free through it....to the point that I am considering staying home. Ugh. I dont want to smoke....but I do....but I mostly don't. Thought I'd vent.

I found the blog section but on my phone I dont see an option to start a blog. How do I do it?