MarylandQuitter

N to the O to the P to the E

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Futhermore, can you imagine Ava in person? All hopped up on that cheap coffee. I bet she never shuts up. Yeah, I went there. :dirol: ((ducks and runs for cover))

Can't imagine what you all are like in person whilst all hopped up on caffeine!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2Jept3BxmA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Py9SDdYGFrQ

As most people know, dogs have a very special place in my life and have for many years. You may not like the mess they can make, but the unconditional love they possess is very unique. You did the right all the right things and reunited this pooch with it's owner who I hope was very please to get her beloved dog back. :)

How does one let this happen? lol I get everything else but this sounds like you were smoking more than one cigarette at once. My no more is that guilty feeling of doing something that I know was slowly killing me. No more guilt.

I'm with ya. NOPE.

I woke up this morning thinking that I had ruined my quit. I had a dream last night that I smoked. My dream wasn't about me smoking as I don't remember lighting one up or smoking but it was about that I had. I was left with that horrible feeling like what have I done? When I was just days away from my 9 month mark in October, 2013, I gave into junkie thinking and smoked. I still believed in the back of my mind that smoking helped to relieve stress. When tragedy struck, I was able to hold off for two weeks but I was allowing the junkie thinking to set the course for my relapse. I smoked 20 cigarettes when I relapsed. What a waste. Didn't enjoy a damn thing about one single drag and it didn't relieve any stress or anxiety that I was feeling at the time. After I smoked that first cigarette in 2013, I felt like I did in my dream last night. I felt empty. I felt like I wasted nearly 9 months of not smoking. I let myself down and I knew it. So, I woke up this morning with that same feeling and it's no surprise that it happened around that 9 month mark. It seemed so real that when I first pulled up the site this morning, I did so with that feeling that I had ruined my quit. Once I had my first sip of coffee and snapped back to life, I remembered that it was just a dream. The only good thing that came of it is that I no longer have to wonder if smoking relieves stress much less believe it does. I was in the middle of a situation that I never, ever imagined I would be and although my world was spinning, smoking didn't help anything at all. What a let down to be honest. I willingly threw away my quit to get some relief to help me cope with the storm that surrounded me and it didn't do anything. When I say it did nothing I mean nothing. Period. I wanted it to. I wanted to believe that smoking would make it better. I tried to believe in the cigarette but I couldn't. I had believed in a lie for all those years. Why did it take me so long to see the truth? The answer is simple; education about nicotine addiction and why we smoke. Not why we shouldn't smoke, but why we smoke. That is what makes it impossible for me to ever believe in the cigarette again. The lie has been exposed and there can be no turning back, ever. I wouldn't smoke anymore than I would place my hand on a hot stove. Despite the stress of the daily grind, family life etc., I know that smoking will do nothing to help in any way at all. So thankful that I came to my senses on October 7th, 2013 and finally "got it" and understood what Allen Carr was saying all those years.

What a positive attitude! You are so far along right now I don't think you even realize it yet. You've applied logic to your quit so there is no way that you can rationalize ever going back to smoking. :)

Glad to see you back, Susana! Let's get it done this time. Keep this quit separate from everything else that goes on in life. Life continues to have it's ups & downs whether we smoke or not but when we smoke, it affects all things good and bad. It will ruin everything good in life and will make the bad even worse. In other words, smoking causes stress and doesn't relieve it.

If you're not active for a certain amount of time, I get logged out too. I'll check the settings...

Congrats, Nancy! Go TP the town tonight! :)

Congrats!!!!

I just signed up there. Can you change your calorie requirement, grams of macros etc.? For example, they have my protein requirement for each day as 84g when it should be 235g.

Bullcrap. I'm a hermit and I can't get away from that song so I know you heard it before. Doesn't Alexa and Seeria have a botched up version of it?

lol That is hilarious. I can't get away from that song. Look at Ava lookin' all gangsta. lol

lol That pic with you putting the glove on is hilarious. What did they say about the jelly?

Good to see you, steelwalker! Thanks for stopping by. :)

No work today so a bike ride at 0400 following by weights late this evening.

Well, you should start! Raaaah! :dirol:

First questions to ask anybody you're even slightly interested in: Do you drink Coffee? If no. Pretend to get a phone call and don't return. What kind of coffee? If it's swill, pretend to get a call and don't return. Do you smoke? If yes, first date must be on Quit Train and us as chaperones. If no, then you get the greenlight. Do you vape? If this answer is "huh?", all is well and proceed. If the answer is yes, eck. If the person all of a sudden pulls out the high school science fair project with batteries hooked up to a ventilator to suck in poision, run.

That's what she toled you, Ava. :)

I've not romanced smoking for a long time now. Sure, I think about smoking because it was a part of my life for so long and engrained in every waking moment of my life. Just like you never completely forget your first love, you'll never forget that you were once a smoker. Now when I think about smoking it's in the sense that it was something that I used to do but have no desire to do so now. No more romancing, just remembering how much better life is not smoking. :)