MarylandQuitter

Where you at? Hope all is well. You haven't been forgotten about so check in if you see this. Doesn't matter if you're smoking or not. Just let us know that you're well and if your not, what can we do?

Everybody knows how I drink my coffee, how I brew it and how it's perfection in a cup. Neighbors bring people I don't even know over to my home to watch me brew. It's an art. It's a craft. It's my craft and I've mastered it. You're lucky I wanted to slum it a bit and stop by this thread. :read:

Flip flops? I wear them with my Maryland tube socks and shorts.

You got an entire train load of quitters who have your back. Post as often as you like, start a blog, watch the documentaries, vent your frustrations and celebrate your victories. We'll be here for all of that with you. :)

Best MJ song right here. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sj4zNWW2nvY

She's a skimmer. She skims. At least according to what my second cousin says (Ava's auntie). She skims books as well as tips from peoples tables as she walks out of a restaurant. Just sayin...

This song is as bad as they come, but the music kicks ass and takes names. I've lifted to many weights and ran too many miles whilst listening to this song.

I grew up listening to KD. Again, had all the albums. lol Abigail!!!!!

Now that we're getting down to the gritty shit, Rammstein. One. Hell. Of. A. Band. Period. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VS07GMUcoaI

How about Lemmy, the baddest mofo who ever took to the stage. They say when he goes to Hell satan will be scared. lol This is some real rock and roll with no froo-froo pretty boy hair band bullshit. Motorhead. Loved them for decades. This song reminds me of the scummy politicians in DC where I work. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yIonRQFpKN4

I saw Judas Priest back in the 80's. My first concert ever. I have Judas Priest in my workout playlist on my ipod. Rob Halford is freaking awesome. He rode that big ass Harley out of stage too.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=czybZ-J_X9g

You are one cool cat yourself, DD. This is one of my favorites from them as well. I remember when they first made it. I bought it on vinyl. :) How 'bout some Dio?

Welcome to the forum! :) I'd wish you luck but luck won't be needed. You can do this without any luck at all. How long have you smoked? How are you doing today so far?

Give some love to these cats. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cjJusRHrio4

The El Bandito has the best avatars ever. Makes me want to wear a kilt for a day and stand on the rooftop at work and play the pipes.

N to the O to the P to the E

What are flap floppers?

Futhermore, can you imagine Ava in person? All hopped up on that cheap coffee. I bet she never shuts up. Yeah, I went there. :dirol: ((ducks and runs for cover))

Can't imagine what you all are like in person whilst all hopped up on caffeine!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X2Jept3BxmA http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Py9SDdYGFrQ

As most people know, dogs have a very special place in my life and have for many years. You may not like the mess they can make, but the unconditional love they possess is very unique. You did the right all the right things and reunited this pooch with it's owner who I hope was very please to get her beloved dog back. :)

How does one let this happen? lol I get everything else but this sounds like you were smoking more than one cigarette at once. My no more is that guilty feeling of doing something that I know was slowly killing me. No more guilt.

I'm with ya. NOPE.

I woke up this morning thinking that I had ruined my quit. I had a dream last night that I smoked. My dream wasn't about me smoking as I don't remember lighting one up or smoking but it was about that I had. I was left with that horrible feeling like what have I done? When I was just days away from my 9 month mark in October, 2013, I gave into junkie thinking and smoked. I still believed in the back of my mind that smoking helped to relieve stress. When tragedy struck, I was able to hold off for two weeks but I was allowing the junkie thinking to set the course for my relapse. I smoked 20 cigarettes when I relapsed. What a waste. Didn't enjoy a damn thing about one single drag and it didn't relieve any stress or anxiety that I was feeling at the time. After I smoked that first cigarette in 2013, I felt like I did in my dream last night. I felt empty. I felt like I wasted nearly 9 months of not smoking. I let myself down and I knew it. So, I woke up this morning with that same feeling and it's no surprise that it happened around that 9 month mark. It seemed so real that when I first pulled up the site this morning, I did so with that feeling that I had ruined my quit. Once I had my first sip of coffee and snapped back to life, I remembered that it was just a dream. The only good thing that came of it is that I no longer have to wonder if smoking relieves stress much less believe it does. I was in the middle of a situation that I never, ever imagined I would be and although my world was spinning, smoking didn't help anything at all. What a let down to be honest. I willingly threw away my quit to get some relief to help me cope with the storm that surrounded me and it didn't do anything. When I say it did nothing I mean nothing. Period. I wanted it to. I wanted to believe that smoking would make it better. I tried to believe in the cigarette but I couldn't. I had believed in a lie for all those years. Why did it take me so long to see the truth? The answer is simple; education about nicotine addiction and why we smoke. Not why we shouldn't smoke, but why we smoke. That is what makes it impossible for me to ever believe in the cigarette again. The lie has been exposed and there can be no turning back, ever. I wouldn't smoke anymore than I would place my hand on a hot stove. Despite the stress of the daily grind, family life etc., I know that smoking will do nothing to help in any way at all. So thankful that I came to my senses on October 7th, 2013 and finally "got it" and understood what Allen Carr was saying all those years.