Welcome Stwine! Thank you for sharing a bit about what you're going through. You're going to be pleasantly surprised how much easier it is to quit than what you're thinking. Sure, you may have your moments but that's where we come in. We'll get you through it so this quit will be permanent and without relapse.
If you haven't already done so, please start watching the video series by Joel Spitzer as the videos start addressing various topics day 1 of your quit. Here are a couple of videos later on in the series which you might find interesting. :)
Dealing With People Who Try To Undercut Your Quit
Video discusses how there may be times when you encounter family members or friends who actually try to undercut your quit. Often they are smokers who feel threatened by your quit, but there are times where non-smokers may encourage you to relapse too.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_S46gMeHbws
Weight Control Concerns After Quitting Smoking
Video discusses why many people gain weight after quitting and what steps can be taken to avoid this from happening.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgIWjMkoco4
The Importance Of Quitting For Yourself
Video discussing the importance of quitting for yourself as opposed to quitting to make other people happy.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwYQ6fq9ZCI
Why I Recommend Cranberry Juice When First Quitting Smoking
Video discusses how cranberry juice can help people when first quitting smoking, but that it use is only helpful during the initial withdrawal period that lasts only 72 hours or less.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WVkuOU7MBjQ