MarylandQuitter

I won't be smoking today.

Evelyn, there is no doubt that the issues that you face each day are ones that I cannot even begin to understand and how they impact you. I'll put myself out on a limb and say that 99.9% of the people here don't either. Understanding and caring are two completely different things though. People here care about you and want to see you succeed. We may not fully comprehend what you must deal with each day but we do care. If people didn't care, they wouldn't take the time to respond. One thing I do understand is that cigarettes don't care about your past. They don't care one bit about your sense of loss and the other issues that you must deal with each and every day. Cigarettes only care about adding to your stress, giving you diseases, controlling your life, removing any self-esteem that you've worked so hard to get, making you feel like a failure, torture you with cravings and try to convince you that you cannot live without them. Smoking works against your therapy that will make you better. Only you can ensure that no matter how lonely you feel that you will not smoke. We can be here to catch you when you fall and expose the junkie thinking, but at the end of the day it's just you and your will to not smoke no matter how good or bad you feel. You were doing very good so you know you can certainly live without the damn cigarettes. Remember how good you felt as each pay passed without smoking? Then you felt lonely and smoked. Smoking didn't cause your loneliness but it did contribute to your sadness and disappointment. Smoking just adds to the very issues that you're trying to recover from. This video is all over this site but I'm going to post here for you. I think it talks about some of the reasons why you've been finding it so hard to stay quit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVEyGdqwjmQ

Great job, Armed!

Congratulations on your 6 months! That went by quick! :drinks:

You get a hand with two missing fingers I insert a red fox

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/6440635/food_matters/

I will not smoke today!

You get a glass tube and a little bottle. Thanks for the autotitrator. :) I insert a piece of driftwood.

Congrats on 4 months!

Not smoking today (what's left of it).

You get an offer from The Pawn Stars I insert a socket set (metric)

You're two days late on this one. :crazy:

Takes some pics as you go along. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgoMPy9L6ag

Finished the 4th season.

Done with Season 4 Episode 14. 2 more episodes left. This season is horribly depressing. Hope something changes in episode 15 or 16.

Congratulations!!!

Evelyn, When I relapsed I was very mindful of how the cigarettes were making me feel. I didn't enjoy them. They didn't taste good, didn't make me feel good, didn't wash away my stress but yet it had gotten to the point at the end of that week that I started to become very concerned. I felt myself being pulled into the jaws of a re-awakened nicotine addiction eventhough I wasn't enjoying smoking. I came very, very close to becoming the full-time smoker that I had worked so hard to not be. The power of this addiction is not to be tempted or played with. One of these times you're going to find yourself completely overwhelmed with the notion of quitting smoking and this constant relapse/quitting cycle that you've thrown yourself into has to be stopped. Only you can stop this and not allow yourself to smoke no matter how much your mind is telling you that you want to or should. Your signature says that smoking is not an option and there are no more excuses. Do you believe this?

NOPE for me today!

I'm not going to smoke today and will only eat one pb&j sandwich.

Great job, rowlyd. When you get a craving instead of channeling all of your thoughts on the craving, think about how your body is healing itself. Focus on your breathing. Breathe in and feel the clean air being dissolved in the alveoli of your lungs as the oxygen is taken to every cell of your body and to your heart. Your heart is no longer having to pump toxic blood through the arteries to every single organ in your body and within 24 hrs, the oxygen in your blood as returned to normal levels and carbon monoxide levels have dropped to normal. You can do this!

Treadmill for 20 minutes. blah

No, you're already a non-smoker since you already put out your last cigarette. You don't need to start something that's already underway. Tomorrow, you will pledge NOPE in the daily pledge board just as you will today before you go to sleep. :)

I just got done running and saw this post on my phone once I got off the treadmill. Sorry for my delay. You must be firm in your decision to not smoke again. There can be no wavering or giving in. Stay after your quit with a vengeance so strong that nothing can break it. The most basic suggestion is to toss your smokes into the trash and get your mind straight that you're going to quit and stay quit, no matter how bad you think you want to smoke. Suggestions to do without delay: 1. Start your own thread in the quit smoking section to chronicle your quit. Start today, right now. All your thoughts, struggles and triumphs should be recorded here. In addition to your own thread, you can also start your own blog if you'd like in our blog section. 2. Go to the Daily Nope Pledge board and post NOPE for today and pledge each and every day. 3. Post as S.O.S. before you smoke 4. Read the newbie database and watch the smoking documentaries which are pinned right below the newbie database 5. Post in your thread at least once per day and as often as you want. There are no limits here. 6. Stay involved with the this support group, even if it's playing some of the games in the social section to keep your mind busy. There are two things about relapses that remain constant. Relapses are always planned and they are always avoidable. We're all just one puff away from living the rest of our lives as smokers. Quit now before you find yourself 10 years down the road and wishing you would have just quit back in 2014. Around five days into my one week relapse, although I didn't enjoy one single puff, I could feel myself being sucked back into a full fledged addiction of 30-40 cigarettes per day. This scared the hell out of me because I wasn't enjoying smoking yet my body and my mind STILL WANTED TO SMOKE and I could feel the addiction pulling me in a direction that I didn't want to go. That was scary. When I faced how powerful this addiction is, especially when I knew I wasn't enjoying it, scared me more than the thought of dying a smoker. I felt it's power and I never want to test my strength against it again. The good news is that you're a non-smoker the instant you put out your last cigarette.