MarylandQuitter

It made sense once I read it but my initial reaction was one of "what the hell happened to Andrew that he threw his quit away?" Glad you're okay with your strong quit intact. :)

I remember watching Peter Jennings say to the world that he had lung cancer. I can remember that as if it were yesterday. I remember thinking "he sure doesn't look like a smoker much less sound like one." That was a good article. Thanks for posting it, Nancy.

I'm right there beside ya, Evelyn. I'm not going to smoke either!

You're right, Andrew, no need for anybody to disappear. There is no requirement to be a non-smoker to be here. When people relapse the best thing they can do is get back here start again. Yeah, it's hard to make that thread when you've relapsed. I've been there and had to do it myself but the uncomfortable feeling doesn't last and you soon start to feel normal again. It doesn't matter if somebody quit smoking the first time out of the gate or it took them 1000 tries before they finally quit for good. The only quit that matters is the current one because it's the only one any of us have any control over. If you've relapsed, please don't put off climbing back on board because it's easier to stay quit when you're surrounded by others who can help you along the way. PS, the title of this thread might be better to read "If You're Smoking Again". I thought that you smoked!!! B)

NOPE again. Is there a law against pledging twice in one day? I read through the bylaws and didn't see anything.

You get a flashing red light indicating that's it's not 1965 and you need to enter one more dollar to get something. I insert a karoke machine

If laughing with tears running down my face from laughing so hard, today with my 5 year old daughter when I was listening to her talking to my Mom on the phone. The stuff kids come up with. :) When was the last time you had a fire drill?

Probably 25 years ago. When was the last time you went canoing?

About 4 years ago. When was the last time you chopped firewood?

I won't be smoking today.

Evelyn, there is no doubt that the issues that you face each day are ones that I cannot even begin to understand and how they impact you. I'll put myself out on a limb and say that 99.9% of the people here don't either. Understanding and caring are two completely different things though. People here care about you and want to see you succeed. We may not fully comprehend what you must deal with each day but we do care. If people didn't care, they wouldn't take the time to respond. One thing I do understand is that cigarettes don't care about your past. They don't care one bit about your sense of loss and the other issues that you must deal with each and every day. Cigarettes only care about adding to your stress, giving you diseases, controlling your life, removing any self-esteem that you've worked so hard to get, making you feel like a failure, torture you with cravings and try to convince you that you cannot live without them. Smoking works against your therapy that will make you better. Only you can ensure that no matter how lonely you feel that you will not smoke. We can be here to catch you when you fall and expose the junkie thinking, but at the end of the day it's just you and your will to not smoke no matter how good or bad you feel. You were doing very good so you know you can certainly live without the damn cigarettes. Remember how good you felt as each pay passed without smoking? Then you felt lonely and smoked. Smoking didn't cause your loneliness but it did contribute to your sadness and disappointment. Smoking just adds to the very issues that you're trying to recover from. This video is all over this site but I'm going to post here for you. I think it talks about some of the reasons why you've been finding it so hard to stay quit. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qVEyGdqwjmQ

Great job, Armed!

Congratulations on your 6 months! That went by quick! :drinks:

You get a hand with two missing fingers I insert a red fox

http://www.metacafe.com/watch/6440635/food_matters/

I will not smoke today!

You get a glass tube and a little bottle. Thanks for the autotitrator. :) I insert a piece of driftwood.

Congrats on 4 months!

Not smoking today (what's left of it).

You get an offer from The Pawn Stars I insert a socket set (metric)

You're two days late on this one. :crazy:

Takes some pics as you go along. :)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tgoMPy9L6ag

Finished the 4th season.