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Hope things are better today, you can get through this no matter what it takes! Please let us know how its going and if we need to send @Doreensfree with her frying pan to stand guard over your quit for a spell.3 points
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Nancy Quit Date: 07/07/2013 Posted September 18, 2014 I have to have a cigarette, RIGHT NOW By tahoehal on November 26 2008 Picture yourself a second or two after you stub out that quit-breaking cigarette. The one that you just had to have because the craving was so strong you couldn't hold out any longer, when that voice inside you was saying.. "Go on, life sucks, you may as well smoke a cig.. y'know for your nerves.." or the other one.. "you've got this beat now.. you are in control.. you can have one just now and again.. go on have one for old time's sake.." So you bum a cigarette, and smoke it and in 2 and 1/2 minutes, you stub it out. Now what. Your mouth feels like crap. Your lungs are tightening up. You managed to stifle the coughs .. but barely. You began to squint again because the smoke hurt your eyes. and your fingers and clothes smell again. You either want to throw up, grab some mouthwash, take a shower, or have another.. maybe buy a pack. But then you realize what you've just done. After all those times when you said you were going to quit, and then when you finally did, and your family and friends were so happy for you - but not exactly over the moon, because after all they've been hopeful before only to see you relapse - all that enthusiasm is now smashed to pieces on the floor. And all the pressure that drove you to grab that cigarette in the first place - it's all still there. Nothing has changed, except now you've added one more problem: you just blew it. And then you realize what you've really done. You had invested days, maybe weeks and months, in this quit. You had made a great decision, one of the few things you really and truly felt proud of in your life, and you just blew it. You just blew the quit that you swore to yourself was the last one. You were so positive, so motivated, and encouraged, you were really on top of it, ahead of the game for once, you had taken control of your life and it felt like a whole new beginning.. and you just blew it. You look at that stub in the ashtray. The grey ash and the brown edge to the burnt paper, and the tar stain on the end of filter. You remember the thousands of cigarettes you have stubbed out and think about the tar that came into your lungs as smoke. And you think if smoking that one cigarette was worth it. Nothing's better. You feel a little dizzy now as the nicotine hits your body, even a little nauseous - certainly don't feel the pleasure that you remember the adverts and billboards were promoting during your early years as a smoker. In fact it's hard to remember any time when you felt that pleasure.. just another tobacco company lie.. They helped you to become an addict the first time, but when you smoked that cigarette after you quit.. well that was a whole new decision. You made that one all by yourself - there's no pointing fingers now, you know that cigarettes kill, so when you lit that one cigarette, the choice to smoke was all yours - no-one else to blame. And you just blew it. It wasn't worth it.. time after time the slippers' and relapsers' lament how they feel like crap, how ashamed they are, how they have lost confidence and hope, how they hate themselves, how much it hurts, how depressed and they cry and hide and cry some more. And now you are one of them.. the quit losers. Lost in the wilderness, not quite a smoker.. yet and not sure you are a quitter, searching for some dignity, some self-respect out of this. All because of that one cigarette. Because you blew it. WITH JUST ONE One Puff One Cigarette One Pack One Carton One Oxygen tank One Lung One Chemotherapy One Funeral One less. Hal 08-20-2004 A puff is too much, a thousand cartons are not enough. Link to original post: https://www.quittrain.com/topic/2719-think-you-need-just-one/ *Edited to remove broken link to outside source1 point
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So horribly true. Been there done that..... lesson learned? I don't think so,,, another lesson avoided is the reality. Another great read for storage in my personal arsenal. Thanks Nancy and Jill for reposting.1 point
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It was really very, very good! Classy Italian Restaurant good As with any recipe, a quality result demands quality ingredients - no cutting corners or you'll likely be disappointed.1 point
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i used to do a homemade shrimp alfredo on the charcoal grill in an iron skillet. it takes some patience and skill to make the alfredo sauce come out right but it still tastes good even if you f*** it up. That is looking really good.1 point
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I know Bri it is so difficult sometimes but please hang in there, you are doing so great!!! And, as we all have said, smoking again won't help with anything. They won't solve problems, won't fix damaged cars, they won't solve anything, they just make things worse. Hang in there we are all with you!!1 point
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Aww B sorry your having a crap time , Thus time of year brings out all kinds of emotions. Don’t you dare go and buy those killer sticks I have my frying pan at the ready to whack you with . I haven’t done that in a while . Just keep coming here screaming and shouting . Stay positive my little Chick xx1 point
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Bri, sorry for your tough day. The crap out of the blue is the worst, and stress is always a nasty culprit that will test anyone's quit. Great job coming here to the quit friends and getting the help you needed, and also supply to others!! Kick some ass through the holidays and you will be standing on top of that infamous year mountain.... Strange issue today for myself also... At my shop just cleaning up oddball equipment and just natural organization when I reached to my pocket where I used to carry smokes like I had never quit?? The thought was immediate, like where are they? It took a few seconds to really slow it down then the crave said well what are you waiting for!! Back and forth for a few minutes until I got a call then just went on like it had never happened. Sneaky sumbitch. The addiction is always looking for the "in" to destroy our quit's. As you know the only way out is time and distractions. The 2023 Quit Crew needs to stick together.1 point
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Sounds like you are having a super crappy day, my dear! I had a similar experience not long ago… something at work went horribly sideways and I was furious about how I was treated. I shouted to my partner, “I want a f—ing smoke!!” And oddly felt better after saying it aloud. Addiction thrives in brooding silence and compressed feelings. Sunshine and truth telling are the very best disinfectants. So shout, cuss, let off steam any way you need to… anything but lighting up. “This too shall pass.”1 point
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Glad you came here to vent instead of store that sells those coffin nails! We get it that sh*t can really build up and push you to the limit and then on top of all that is the stress of the season as things quickly ramp up during our times of celebration. The thing is ... what remain constant and true always is that smoking never helps anything! We all have to always keep that one simple fact in mind ongoing. Glad you were able to do that today. Be kind to yourself over this season and cut yourself some slack. The best thing you can show your family & friends is a relaxed, smoke-free you!1 point
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@Brioski, don't you dare buy any smokes! What your going through is normal, especially during the holidays with that added stress so just hang on and it WILL pass! I promise! Give yourself a free pass to yell at hubby as needed if that works. Eat a snack to keep your hands busy. Also doing something that makes you have to think works good to get your mind on something else. And if all else fails, just go to bed and hopefully tomorrow will be better1 point
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This is a GREAT post that so vividly captures the pain of relapse. So many of us suffered through this: “And all the pressure that drove you to grab that cigarette in the first place - it's all still there. Nothing has changed, except now you've added one more problem: you just blew it.” Lost in the wilderness indeed, but the Quit Train can be a rope that pulls us out of the quicksand. NOPE1 point
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WTH is with today? I had some of the biggest craves today. It’s been super stressful at the shop, that I own w hubs, and I wanted to shoot him, me, quickbooks reps, him again, etc. I could not believe the stress, not only today but this whole month. It’s also the 2nd year of my dad passing, first Christmas season without cigs so I get it but damn. I literally yelled out that I’m buying cigarettes today and that that’s it . Idk what’s going on but I want off0 points
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