@Kdad
Sorry to hear you had a setback, but all it is, is a setback, start again, be brave, you can do it! I am close to 8 months out and I still struggle every day. I am okay with that. The one thing I will not do is buy cigarettes. I made the decision to quit because of health issues. If you are not afraid, you should be. You will do this when you finally realize there is nothing else to be done. You have to understand (and we all know it to be true), smoking is just a slow suicide. You have quit before, you know how to do it. This will sound stupid, but sometimes I think the process is harder for men. I know for me when I get overwhelmed, I just have a good cry to release the anxiety and anger at myself. I think most guys do not see that as an option. I believe I read you were home because of disability so I don't know what you can do physically. My husband used to go out and chop wood or take his sledgehammer to something to get things out of his system. Look at yourself honestly, at what you can do, why you want this, why this really, really matters to you. Then do it.