Thought I would start a thread to share how my holiday has gone so far and in the hopes others will share too!
Had a bit of a rough week leading up to Christmas-a work thing that brought up all the old triggers. The craving returned although it was but a mere shadow of its former self. I stayed close to QT and my AA group.
Ironically (or maybe not so much), the "issue" relieved itself within about 36 hours. Oh I am not saying its "resolved." I just don't have the same attachment to it, the attachment which made it reasonable, in my junkie mind, to smoke. As a reliever don't you know.
Not "relieving" the issue with a smoke actually relieved it faster methinks. So there is that wonderful realization.
I grabbed the Christmas Eve shift at the shelter so the other night managers could enjoy their families. A client showed up, schizophrenic but in surprisingly good shape. Reeking of cigarettes which is pretty much the norm with the folks who walk through that door. I fixed her some tea and tucked her in with snacks. A restless night ensued with random thoughts as I listened to her snore like a choo-choo train. Wondered if I snored like that when I was smoking. Or (horrors!) do I still snore like that?
Woke up after a few hours and started mopping the floors. Made the client a cup of coffee which I delivered to her as she was outside smoking. I was so grateful that I didn't have to light up. So grateful I didn't WANT to light up.
This good feeling has continued and I am pretty shocked not to be suffering from holiday smoking triggers. I should be but they just aren't there.
I have no idea why; I am just going with it.
The thoughts of smoking are still with me and there is always the fear that something will catch me unawares which finds me at the Shell (gas) station. Keeps me on my toes; keeps me showing up here multiple times a day to check in.
Thanks to everyone on the QT for sharing the magic with me.
Love and blessings to all.
K