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g’day NOPE to start the day

Nope not today!

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Positively NOPE !!!!!!

Naw, G!! Nope, not today!!

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How's it going @mightyboosh? Early days can be tough going at times. We are here to lend support all we can cuz we've all been where you are now.

I haven't had a single craving or even passing thought of smoking in well over fifteen years, yet I have periodic smoking dreams like the ones you describe. They're deeply unsettling. A friend of mine who has advanced training in psychology and whose insights I value suggested to me a few years ago that the dreams probably have nothing to do with my quit proper and instead may be a way for my subconscious to examine/express broader issues like success/failure, the "imposter syndrome," etc. Christian99 17 1/2+ Years Quit

Congratulations Sunshine! 8 months is a very substantial quit Hope you plan to mark the day by treating yourself to something nice. You are now two thirds of the way to your first full year smoke free. That's a great accomplishment!

g’day NOPE starts my day

Been painting the kitchen ....just sat down for a welcomed glass of wine ...

Your priority for the first while is solidifying your quit and making sure it's rock solid. I gained weight and frankly still have some extra tonnage on board but I don't smoke so I'm good with that! If you are really concerned about the weight issue, feed yourself healthy, low calorie snacks. Get into exercising which will keep your mind occupied and will also keep you busy and burn calories. I didn't do either of those but that was my choice. Bottom line is, your quit is Job #1 for the foreseeable future

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NOPE - Smoking sucks!

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Ha, ha! Not throwing a sticks win for a win here! I'd be run out of town by the other sticks

Yeah - what's goin' on? Even a broken clock is right twice a day yet, I can't buy a win in this game

I did outside painting the other day ....................... then, I fell asleep

I knew I shouldn't have answered. My minds still swirling from the party. Might take me a while to get it working!

I declare today "recliner day" and prescribe a good book or some bad t.v., along with "breakfast in recliner" cooked by BF the chef, and a couple of dogs at your feet making sure nothing hits the floor. Enjoy a lazy day in your uncluttered house and hopefully the CBD will help get your sleep back on track.

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Oh it's hit alright. I know today is going to be another chill day for me I'm finally going to listen to my body and just rest. I'm curious to know what other side effects I'll have. I know everyone reacts differently but they said to expect this 'dip' around the third and 4th week and then around week 6 should start coming back up and feeling better. Glad to know it wont last forever. That pill did seem to work. I think last night was the longest I've slept yet! And I probably would have slept longer had the pups not woken me up. I'm definitely going to take another one tonight. But for now just checking in before I go hit my recliner.

There's, tons of dishes to be washed for the next party ..

I've enjoyed all those cocktails ...

Sorry you didn't make it to your sisters today but glad you're listening to your body and taking that much needed rest. When I first quit smoking I was exhausted for months so I can't imagine going through what you are on top of that. I hope the CBD helps you get that full nights sleep you need

Rest up and wring out your liver @Linda Thomas. We go again day after tomorrow No one ever said it would be easy as an Olde-Pharte on the Quit Train

Thanks so much for thinking of me Reci and thank you everyone for your lovely good wishes. I am only here for the weekend so won't be back after Monday. Lots has changed. I'm still completely smoke free and loving it. I have met a new man and we have become inseperable. He stopped me for a dodgy light, came round that night on the pretence of checking he gave me my licence back and the rest as they say is history. Seems as though not smoking has changed my whole life. I look younger, I have grown in confidence as I'm not self conscious about how I smell and I've always got a smile. I haven't seen that angry smoker I used to be for over 5 months. I'm very calm and chilled Ike I used to be as child. I don't have enough time to catch up with all the posts so I will say congratulations to everyone who is on this journey. Without this forum I would never have quit. The people here are truly amazing and I thank you all x

And that's pretty much how the day went lol! Grease has been on and even though I've seen it a million times I could watch it a million more. I do think the CBD helped. I used to smoke weed recreationally and of course it always gave me a good sleep and chilled me out lol. So I did have her pick me up a bottle that way I can have 1 to take at night and then 1/4 or 1/2 the dose for my anxiety during the day as I ween off the Xanax. Also doing my rabbit hole researching found that there is no interaction between the Tagrisso and medical marijuana so then dug into the case studies and basically it came down to nothing but beneficial. And being in the state of Fl. I'm eligible to obtain my card based on my dx. Of course I plan to let my Dr. know, not sure if he'll be pro or con but again that's where I get to step in as my own 'patient advocate' and make my own decision and not be denied treatment. Again it's just something that makes sense vs taking a bunch of synthetics for this or that when there's something natural that will do it all. I reached out to my neighbor today who went through it with breast cancer and she was so glad I did and I am too. I really needed someone close to talk to and apparently she had been waiting for me to reach out. We talked for a good hour or so and I just felt so much better afterwards. It helps when someone 'gets it'. She's also retired and the caretaker for her husband (dementia and dialysis) so she's been feeling isolated and lonely and would enjoy spending time with someone. So we agreed we'd support each other. Starting tomorrow we are going to start a ritual of walking every AM before it gets too hot. We both need the exercise and now have a buddy to do it with. Then in the afternoons her H doesn't have treatments or my family isn't here we'll get together and play board games or cards. She's a big scrabble fan so that works for me and helps keep the mind sharp. But I think all and all we were both relieved to know that were not alone in our situations and that two are better than one and we can encourage each other. Hopefully tonight I sleep good. I hope everyone has a goodnight and remember NOPE!!! We can do this!!

Amazing pictures ....well done ,and thank you for sharing....

DING DING DING !!!! WE HAVE A WINNER !!! @Linda Thomas YAY YAY YAY !!!! I NEVER back packed into Big Sur with friends, I DID camp out of a Cadillac with a drug dealer and a pimp in the Sierras and I did canoe camp for weeks out in the Quetico with husband #2

Boy hellkat, I was beginning to think you were superwoman. I knew that radiation had to hit sometime. Your body needs to recoup from the radiation. Accept the fact that you are going to be tired for a while. Fortunately, it will not last forever. Can't believe Deadpool jammies come in adult sizes. I bet you look cute! I just googled the CBD/THC. Isn't it amazing how they have found cannabis to have such great medicinal value. You are doing so great handling all these new challenges. That positive attitude is going to carry you through all this. Take care and rest.

Angry friends take everything rudely Angry

Thank you - thank you!! To celebrate I'm chilling out in my Deadpool PJ's for the night lol!!!

That was some party. I am on my way home now!

Saw quite a bit of wildlife out there. Everything from marmots, to deer, to Golden Eagles. Saw this bear doing some fishing in Lower Paradise Valley near Mist Falls.

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Thanks for checking in - I just ended up getting wrapped up in the day that was supposed to be 'relaxing' but turned out to be one of those unexpected busy days. Never did get any sleep much less to really sit down until bedtime at 11 and now it's 3AM again! SIGH.....my new 'wake up' time. Hopefully I'll catch some zzzz's around 4ish before the house starts buzzing when my BF wakes up. Oh how I made such a mess of things yesterday lol - I woke up to hair just pretty much coming everywhere and clinging to everything! So thought I'd take control and empower myself by just buzz cutting it. First I did take a little bit and saved a small pig tail of it. But ugh after that what a hot mess that turned out to be I started with the #2 guard and was like NOPE that looks really sloppy. Then moved to the #1 guard and things went from bad to worse! I finally gave up trying to be 'neat' about it and just swept it all up and threw it away. I never thought I'd do the wig thing but since my ins. is covering it and not costing me a dime I figured I'd take advantage of it. Then about the time I was going to eat and take a nap my phone started blowing up. It was my insurance letting me know the Dr's tried to put the claim under pharmacy and that was holding everything up. So rather than try and call them and sit on hold and the wait days for them to get to it I just drove up there and had them resubmit the claim correctly. While I was waiting the stylist went ahead and cleaned up my head for me - now it doesn't look like a 2yr old did it lol. But by the time she was done everything was already approved and I was able to walk out wearing the wig I picked out a few days before! So she spent a good 2hrs with me showing me how to take care of it etc. Then I actually ended up order another one before leaving just because! Both are by Raquel Welsh - the first one is called Show Stopper but the name is misleading. To me it's just a very casual just past the shoulders everyday look. But the 2nd one I chose was the Limelight - which is really long and curly and there's ALOT you can do with it. I go back Monday since they had to order that one. I'll post pics of what they look like at the bottom. But by the time I got home I realized quickly how hot a wig can be! I took that puppy off as soon as I hit the door and rocked the t-shirt turban all day. When I went to try it on to show my BF I realized I need lots more practice with these things. He really like it though! Said had he not known what my real hair looked like he would have never guessed it was a wig. But I went from a brunette to a red-head with high lights. Figured I might as well switch things up!! But to be honest the turbans and scarves seem way more comfy and easy for now. My sister got back in town tonight and wants me to come hang out at the river house with her tomorrow - I think a change of scenery will do me good and I can't wait to catch up with her. So I have all sorts of goodies packed for a day of just fun and sister stuff!!! Hopefully I'll be able to catch a morning nap this time before heading out. But if not I know I can just crash out there peacefully. Ohhhh and my Deadpool PJ's come today!! My BFF ordered them from Amazon so I'm super excited about that lol!! Still haven't gotten around to the mask yet - forgot about paint fumes/marker fumes so trying to figure out if I can just get colored duct tape and do it that way. I'm sure I'll think of something!! So until then TGIF everybody!! It's the weekend, time to relax and enjoy it because we earned it!! This is the 'show stopper' or casual and this is the 'limelight' a bit more dressier. Digging the red though.

Just got back from a 6 day backpacking trip on the John Muir Trail in Kings Canyon National Park. Probably the most challenging hike I've ever done, but the most beautiful too. Would not have been possible 4 years ago. This pic is at Middle Rae Lake.