Over three days, I smoked six of the cancer sticks. Each time, Something interesting happened -
head rush, guilt, feeling sick, having horrid taste in mouth, being able to smell myself, thinking about how smoking is a fire hazard...
So last night I gave the rest of the pack to my room mate and said, "crumble these". She has never experienced tobacco nor nicotine so nit like she would pick up the habit.
I just decided that smoking wasn't worth the BS.
The worst part is feeling guilty. I seldom feel guilt but damn, that was horrid.
So if anyone else sees this and is thinking, "screw it, I want to smoke". It really is not worth it. It is kind of the same guilt you might feel if you got mad an broke something expensive.