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Just read a recent blog entry entitled "I am not a spokesperson for quitting smoking" (bows to soberjulie) I wrote a reply and liked it so much lol that I thought I would add it to mine i'm not going to beat myself up because some days I crave the nicotine, it was part of my life for so long that I don't expect it to be an easy journey, no quit is right or wrong, but if I can help that one person get through their day a little bit easier, if I can pay it forward just a little then I feel that I'm doing something right, I take each day as it comes, and aim to get through each day smoke free, I want my quit to be a forever quit, but I don't know what is round the corner and can hope that I am strong enough to face each crave and trigger as they occur, so far so good but who knows, I have no crystal ball, some days are easier than others and those days are great, some days/weeks (like recently) have been torture and I could quite easily go back, but coming here and reading and seeing that I am not alone goes a hell of a long way in keeping my quit. Do you know think I may put this in my blog!

((Hugs)) If beating ourselves up was an effective way to change a thought/feeling/behavior.....it would have worked a long time ago. You didn't smoke today. So you win! :)

My emotions are still up and down like a yo yo. I have smoked since I was 13 years old. My first cigarette was age 9! I am now 38, never in all my adult years have I "coped" as a non smoker. I did quit for 364 days, but I was massively protected in that time and the first real drama, I smoked again. So I will forgive myself that sometimes I don't know how to/who to be? I feel like a child sometimes! I am now learning how to deal with my emotions. Ironically, I am teaching my 8 and 4 year old daughters how to do the same haha. I get really sad, really down but then I come bouncing back up. I will learn without smoking how to do this, how to be calm. So the triggers are now easier but there. Only being around smokers is harder, but still, I can manage that in a dismissive way by putting my thought process together and remember one cigarette goes with 30 a day and that is DONE! However, I would be a liar if I said it didn't still exist, but it's ok and easier week by week I honestly think. The emotions -truly a work of art/work in progress?!