Spent most of yesterday reading aloud to my marvelous man.  We were tending to burn piles on the property.  Lovely spring day for it.  Saw a white squirrel. First time I have ever seen one.  

I seem to be grumpy and dumpy... declaring aloud often , " I do not smoke."  

Have stuck with exercise challenge (2 specific exercises) for 6 days. 

Limiting news intake.

Eating more than my share.

Have had chronic pain in my neck for several months. It feels as if steel bands have been installed and I have a very limited range of motion with my head.   Some evenings I take PM ibuprofen and am very groggy the next morning into the day.

Am feeling very' meh' in all things today.  Am reticent in getting myself either out the door to walk with the cat or into the shower.   

grateful for...

my digits - fingers that caress, pinch, grasp, hold, speak ASL, type, bathe, chop, paint, massage and toes that balance, stretch, wiggle, walk, dance

healthy skeleton - teeth, jaw, spine, pelvis, clavical, cranium, ankles and wrists and all other skeletal pieces because a sturdy frame affords me strength of movement

muscles - because they hold me together and allow me to lift, move, bend, carry, speak, eat,  push and pull with ease

healthy organs - because  my digestion/elimination flows easily, my blood flows freely, oxygen circulates smoothly, my senses inform me of the physical environment

the health of those I hold dear - because they are easily thriving

my cats, Mani and Poof, - because they bring deep comfort, joy and a fair amount of silliness to life

My marvelous man - because my needs to love and be loved are met, and he is really punny.... which leads to much laughter and groaning

a beautiful nourishing home - because it feeds & frees my soul to live in the woods and have a sturdy house with many amenities that make life easy (w/d, dw, air/heat, plumbing, fridge, 2 bathrooms, garages) ... we've come a long way baby! lol

knowing that things change - because this grumpy dumpy feeling and lethargy will not last forever; nor will the rapid spread of this virus or the stay at home directive  (which when I think about it is ironic, as I have sometimes  wished I could just hang out at home ... be specific when putting out there what you want... hang out at home (doing/creating art, playing with the pets, creating gardens, fishing, enjoying the company of family and friends), with full income and no one being ill due to a pandemic or other contagion or catastrophic event
Freedom from smoking - because I am not a slave to an active nicotine addiction.... 16 plus days without any nicotine entering my body....  

quit train - because "we all need a hand to hold onto"
 

I am tired and ..... smoke free.  Wow!  head/habit aspects of addiction lurking and popping up  ... nope, nope, nope.                                                       find ways to thrive people!