25 march - 14 days free

Wow! I really don't know how it's been 14 days already.

Body inventory:

no pain in lungs when breathing

taste and smell things  in  HD  - really enjoying the scent of woodlands in the rain

ear and throat irritation - allergies, covid-19, healing -  may never know for certain

tired - not sleeping too well lately, and hey, who is?

a bit more than a bit concerned that I am not doing the things that support a sturdy quit.... pre posting a current SOS for myself, refreshing my knowledge and understanding of addiction, etc

not really acknowledging my quit... unless I'm off the hook about something and craving....

                      lack of appreciation and maintenance   ... danger... warning  

Feeling great today. Haven't intentionally watched news in over 24 hours, pretty sure that has something to do with my spirits.  

did not get to have my island picnic last night.... I was too grumpy and tired by the time we returned to the house.

My guy is on edge ... every cough, throat itch, etc is magnified for him right now.  Deeply grateful we seem to be on opposite freak out/sadness schedules.  Makes it easier, I think, to hold space for each other.  Neither of us has had much contact with other people at all in the last 3 weeks. however people do come on site for work and servicing equipment.  Our state, Minnesota, is not on "safer at home" strategy now, yet.  oops, typed too soon...breaking radio news we will practice "safer at home" 3/27 - 4/11.   does that change what I am already doing?   no.  carry on.  

                                                                          grateful for ....

        quit train and the people and resources here

                     being ambulatory and balanced (mostly...)

     relationships that nourish my heart, mind and soul

                                         14 days of freedom from smoking...and the rest of my life

     walking in the woods in the spring rain

                     nourishing thoughts, words, choices, intentions, actions, environments

        laughter, silliness

                                 learning to dance with my marvelous man...pretty sure we're not doing the         box step correctly, and really don't care because I get to dance with the love of my life

                                            lifelong friends/family who know me well  - and still love me!

my senses because I experience some marvelous things with each of them....really appreciating birdsong right now

   just a random dancing bird image....not yet seen with my own peepers

purposely chose a font size that shouted my gratitudes....apologies, if I hurt your eyes.   ha ha