I'm sorry about your dad mrsguest, my dad and his little brother (my uncle) both died of smoking related cancer. My uncle in 2000 and my dad just two years later and I too continued to smoke until 2016.

We can't change the past. Be proud that you have now quit because I know your dad would be proud

What a beautiful picture, mrs.

You quit smoking !  Look forward, soon you will have confidence in the quit you are building.

Build it sturdy and strong and the benefits will shine on all parts of your life.

I am so glad you found us !

"You'd think that would have been enough for me to put the cigarettes down, but no. "

Addiction is addiction, and we all must understand it's power.

(not more powerful than we are but, it is very serious, indeed )

A very sweet picture.  My father-in-law also died of smoking related lung cancer.  I thought it was a terrible death.  I still continued to smoke thinking it would not affect me, I am young and will quit, .........................42 years later and I was still smoking and making excuses.  I pinch myself everyday and can't believe I have finally quit and how powerful I feel.  You will get there too mrsguest.  

So sorry for your losses, Jillar

Sazerac - I hope I gain confidence soon, because I don't have very much now. It's there, but not much. 

I'm glad I found you guys too, I will forever be grateful!  

1 hour ago, mrsguest said:

I hope I gain confidence soon, because I don't have very much now. It's there, but not much. 

I had very little confidence, when I started my quit.  I was so ashamed of smoking.  The forum really held me up through my quit.  Every day without that cigarette, gives you so much power.  Stay close and we will help you get there too!

I have a similar story as well with my father. Smoked right through the funeral and for years afterward. My dad was openly advocating for all his kids to stop smoking years before he died but none of us did of course. I know he's be proud that both myself and my brother did eventually quit.

Even though you didn't quit while your dad was here to see it, it will still be a very special part of quitting to you .... knowing how proud your loving dad would be  

Very sweet picture!  Please don't ever give up on your quit.  You're quitting for you which I guarantee that is what your Dad wanted.  Make the day you quit a very special day.  Mark it on the calendar and have it mean something that you protect and keep it safe from everything, no matter what happens.

1 hour ago, MarylandQuitter said:

Very sweet picture!  Please don't ever give up on your quit.  You're quitting for you which I guarantee that is what your Dad wanted.  Make the day you quit a very special day.  Mark it on the calendar and have it mean something that you protect and keep it safe from everything, no matter what happens.

that is a very beautiful thing to say and I really appreciate it. I really have taken this to heart.