Congratulations on your journey.

Your thought, "it was somewhat a loneliness, "

reminded me of this post, "My Cigarette, My Friend"

Nice update Marie

What you said seems pretty normal to me, from my recollection of my early quit.  I always thought of smoking as a physical thing so the fact that it's the mental urges that end up taking the longest to over come was a little surprising to me. I had both too - mental and physical. For me that uneasy, jittery feeling manifested in short temper, easy to become frustrated etc. That was with me longer than I would have liked but, all this stuff eventually disappears as you re-learn how to live your life without turning to smokes all the time as some kind of emotional band-aid? Now days, for me, when something in my life happens that stresses me or pisses me off .... I don't immediately think of going for a smoke, which is what I would have done before so, yeah .... it takes time but it does happen.

Hi Marie, no need to be sorry. Rant and post as much as you need to, it really helps. The mind fog is totally normal and will eventually go away. Most of us found that having some sort of candy to suck on really helped too. I guess our sugar levels get a little out of wack in the early days. But the biggest thing is let your body dictate what it needs. If it's thirsty drink, hungry eat. Tired rest. Some days the constant thoughts of cigarettes made me just say the heck with it and go to bed hoping for a better tomorrow. You're doing great!