I decide to choose 'love life' and here and now. My therapist let me chose a 'here and now stone' which I can grab, feel, touch when I drift off to older, bad days. Hadn't seen him in 5 weeks... dreadfull weeks. He was awsome and guess what so was I!!!

How close was I of exploding today, with my SOS; luckily I did it. That SOS saved my quit. I SAVED MY QUIT> my life!!!

I am free to make my own choices, not every man is like the bad ones from my past. That person is gone, dust, a shadow nothing more or less then bad memories no longer able to hurt me: All lessons from today. I am stronger, litterally in my mind and written in ink on my wrists

Sorry if this makes you depressed to read it ;/ just had a tough day but I cracked it ;)

I am one tough, sweet couckie

So lets kick-off the second week with the next song ! Amen