I am pleased. And I'm also going to be open, not for my sake but for those who struggle with mental health problems, various from anxiety to depression to borderline... I a proud. I am proud standing here with my almost 3 days on my ticker. Not that the quitng is a huge accomplishment... but quiting when you have to deal with anxiety, or in my case dissociation: I lost almost 2 months of time, variating from a day to 2 weeks. Finding myself smoking, on the ER, another hospitalisation on the mental health clinic or heavy drinking. There's also hope. CONTINUING smoking is NOT the solution-- I asked an adjustment in my medication and since Wedneysday I'm stabalising. Do NOT shy away, because you can't quit; YOU CAN!!! You darn CAN!!! I did it 16 months before I startled destabalising. BUT there's always hope on the end of a thunderstorm, suddenly rainbows can pop up, shinning thru your tears!!! And I'm one of those tough cookies, who's sweet enough to tell YOU, another tough cookie to stand up and start living a smokefree life. THAT is the first freedom, no excuse needed. Did I fail, stumble, felt ashamed hell yes... but I got up! And that's why I'm writting this: no one is helpless or lost...

Alegria