I am doing what I always wanted to prove to myself; that I could quit without nicotine replacement - that's why my self for-filling prophecy came out... so I pulled of the patch when I closes in to going on without and smoked.

3 cigarettes I smoked; they tasted horribly. I faced my biggest fear, continuing or better said quitting without nicotine replacements.

I read Joel's article on low blood sugar the first 3 days and since my stomach gets heartburn' I use sugar in my tea. In one day and a halve I'm going to cut down on the sugar, but if I need it for I'd say a week I won't make it a huge problem.

I'm discovering I CAN in act quit without nicotine. I even visited my smoking neighbor the first day. I said NOPE. I'm no longer going to avoid smokers. They smoke, I quit smoking and am an ex-smoker. I CHOOSE TO N.O.P.E.

I 'relapsed' because I knew I would, I CHOOSE to pick up a cigarette. Like said all over the place its planned when you relapse. And it's true. Those 3 months we're fake still on a lifeline with nicotine.

NOW I AM FREE, BECAUSE I CHOOSE TO (and somewhere I got the confidence I could pull pull it off)

But I'm closing off my second day and am SO thankful for the strenght and mercy God has shown me and by that I grew in confidence.

Those 3 months were like the little toddlers pool, where I sat and relaid on the nicotine to work. Now I threw myself in the deep. And you know what? It's not nearly as scary as I thought it would be.