When I gave up somewhere I got the idea to write a list of why I didn't want to do the smoking thing anymore. I added more and more of course, as we quit new benefits and logics come to you. Anyway, orginal list:

-Broke my word to Milly TWICE saying I would quit and didn't

-I want to sing along to my songs I like

-My cough

-Mums health scares me

-Want to go out sometimes (money)

-Can't afford clothes and shoes which I need.

-Florida trip, going nowhere!

-£300 a month?!?

-Outside smoking

-2nd hand smoke for children

-We all smell, everything smells!

-To prove I can give up

Well today I FINALLY sang along to my halestorm CD in the car!! I mean I wasn't in tune or anything but I could hit all the notes without my voice/throat cracking :) It was one of the things that really annoyed me about being a smoker, seems silly when I compare it to what I have now but in my defence I didn't know how endless the benefits would be!!

Nothing of note for anyone else but I kinda felt like I had achieved or done all I could with the rest of my list. My Mums health will never improve but she and my partner quit smoking eventually. We are all healthier and becoming more healthy eating aware. First and foremost I put my children first - finally! I will never forgive myself for failing my daughter and breaking my word :(

Ironic to read the list now though. So many things weren't on it. Like self worth. Health benefits for me and so it goes on.

Smokings pretty nuts!! The distortion in thinking is utterly crazy!! Pleased I'm free.