Woke up this morning feeling different

cannot explain it just different - relaxed almost

bonnies thread about her 13 cigarettes made me think about my 3 I have been hanging onto

I kept them to keep up my fight as I had something physical to fight

I have realised the fight is in my head

I drowned them today and binned them - no emotion to it at all

No longer feel scared or need to fight - I think thats why I feel relaxed it`s like an end of a battle

It feels weird but in a good way :)