Finally found out why everyone says cut your caffeine intake in half. . .lol! So not so much sleep last night, but my own fault. At least one rooster was awake before me this morning. Driving to work was not too bad as far as triggers. I have had to do new stuff with the driving. I am not hauling out the thermos of coffee plus my cigs and lighter in preparation for the 30 minute drive to work. Turns out I really only wanted the coffee in order to help the cigarettes taste better. I don't know if anyone else did this, but I always had to have something like coffee or sprite or juice with me. It was to cut the furry mouth enough to actually taste the smoke. It feels weird to not HAVE to brush my teeth as much as I used to; my mouth just doesn't taste as nasty. Small stuff I'm noticing when I can .

A lot of the brain fog is gone today. Wasn't as productive as I usually am but I wasn't staring blankly ahead of me with sunflower seeds dropping mindlessly out of the corner of my mouth,,,

I am starting to see a glimmer (not glitter--nobody get too excited) of hope that someday I can see the world differently, not trapped in my life by nicotine. I could go on that train to Alaska this year. I didn't last year because I couldn't smoke. What will that be like, not jittering all the time thinking about the next smoke too tense to pay attention to anything?

Another day I didn't smoke. No matter what.