Me! Me! Me! That would be me! I am in charge today! Nicotine has no power over me ever again! 

Wow I can relate to that in my many attempts to quit lol

honestly...even tho i've been quit for a few weeks, the cigs are still in control.  I'm still an abstaining smoker.  Most of my thoughts are dominated by the quit but that's okay.  it has to be this way.  my quit is a garden and right now it's full of weeds so it's going to take all my focus and effort to get all the weeds pulled.  then once all the weeds are pulled it's going to take daily monitoring for new sprouts of weeds so i can dig down and find the roots.  later it will take weekly monitoring for more weed sprouts so i can dig down further and get the rest of the roots.  and then when i've gotten all the roots out and all the weeds are gone and there are only beautiful blooming flowers in my quit garden i still have to be vigilant in monitoring for weeds cause seeds will blow in on the wind from who knows where and they will pop up when and where i least expect them.  but that is life.  the garden, whatever it is be it quitting smoking or playing piano, must be tended.  to do otherwise is to stop living.

I LOVE your analogy for your quit @intoxicated yoda

thanks. @jillar i try to keep that in mind and hope it's the one that'll get me past the unceasing cravings.  do you recall roughly how long it was before you actually felt like you were over it? I quit once for about 4 years but it's been 26 or 27 years since i started back again and i've no recollection of how or what i did to get through it.  i only know what the trigger was to start me back which is highly unlikely to happen again.

@intoxicated yoda, it took me my whole first year. It was the same as if there was a death in my family. That's why I stuck close to my support. We even have a one year pledge pinned to the top of the main forum. We smoked for a lot of years so there's just no way that we can be over it even in a years time because there will always be "firsts" that will test you but the beauty is that they are much easier to swat away then when we first quit

i can't do a year....but i can do tomorrow.  

see yas tomorrow!!  and thanks for the chat.  i helped far more than you know.

Just found this thread. I am in charge.  May not like it but I have go do it. I have to be in charge but there are days when I want to say take care of that, I am going to take a nap.  It is kind of funny I found this,  I have been having trouble with my middle child (dog).  He thinks he is entitled to get food aggresive behavior and throws a fit, I mean ugly with teeth out and barking and going at the 80# chow who does not respond.  It is not acceptable, so I grab him and put my hand around his mouth an I tell him I am in charge, I put his food bowl up on the table. He is learning he can't have his bowl until he stops.  I yell at him in my meanest voice that I am in charge and he stops.  Am I doing the right thing? I know you are you are talking about my quit and I am in charge of that but to to take care of that I have to be in charge of all areas of my life.

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