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Posted 11 November 2012 - 10:33 PM   It's been a difficult week. Had to put my Cat down a few days ago. He was nearly 17 years old but had cancer and was suffering towards the end. Of course sad and anxious times are triggers for smoking. I have chosen not to smoke no matter what---and I won't. Thanks to you all for teaching me that smoking will not help. In fact it makes things worse. Had I not had the strength of the things I have learned here there might have been a different outcome today.
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Today

Posted 03 November 2012 - 04:53 PM Some days are just more difficult than others....Some days I miss not having the nagging anxiety a cigarette seemed to solve---until I remember that I did have anxiety when I smoked. Not sure why I did not identify it as such. So often when having a cigarette was not possible I would be crawling out of my skin until I could light up again. I remember standing out in the rain, snow, wind. Burning my clothes, car and furniture. SMELLING terrible---as my kids so
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No smoking section

Posted 03 September 2012 - 09:44 PM   Today while doing my laundry at my mums (my washer is broken) I had to keep walking through my brothers bedroom while he was smoking...and not once did I feel a crave to smoke. I do not come face to face with smoking very often. No one in my life smokes--It was always just me... I don't know if next week I will feel differently but for today it was such a good feeling to witness him puffing away and not feel bad that I was not doing the same. I know I wi
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Silly and selfish

I don't even know where I am - around 6 weeks quit? Anyway my quit is secure, I am solidly behind the I don't want to smoke.   So why do I still wobble emotionally?? I am gutted that two people I cared for fell off the wagon, it's so not my business!! I am gutted my mum keeps cheating, it's not my business!! When did I turn into a busybody?? It's laughable, it is the opposite of who I am. These emotions are "not me", I stay calm and in control. I look after everyone and cope...but wow, some da
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I cannot fail this I just can't

Posted 25 June 2013 - 06:32 PM   I keep telling myself that I've made it this far and because of that I can keep on going. Not to mention, I DO NOT want to go through it all again. There are also all of the benefits I am experiencing and the ones I will soon discover. With that said, I am having an awful hard time of it.   It started about a week ago, these tests one after another. All situations that in the past I would have needed dozens of cigarettes to get through. It started with a deat
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So this is what heck week is like...

Posted 11 June 2013 - 06:45 PM   Very similar to Hell week, just less intense. I've actually been off the patch since Saturday. While exercising, I took it off because it wouldn't stay on. I forgot about it until the next day and never put it back on. With the patch, there was really no irritability and I had trouble sleeping. Without the patch, I find myself snapping at innocent people and losing my patience quickly. I also have trouble staying awake past 9, which is odd for me - a night owl.
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Hell Week Is Hellish

Posted 08 June 2013 - 03:20 PM   Whomever named hell week, had it right. In about 11 hours, I'll have clocked 6 days into my quit. I think what makes it so hard, is that it takes so long. Maybe this is just a huge long lesson in patience.   Random whiffs of scents that blow me away, never this strong before. The smell of fresh cut grass and the rain is awesome, my garage on the other hand is so not awesome smelling. Mornings aren't too bad anymore, much more manageable. During the week, dayt
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Day 13

I still think about smoking but it is getting less frequent. There are only moments here and there. My breathing is still getting better every day. I am wondering when the fight will be over and I can relax. I am still waiting also to feel normal again. This I am sure will take some time to undo 35 years of being abnormal. I am still very happy about my decision to be a non smoker I think I just have to get comfortable with this and learn how to snuggle up.
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3 months quit!!!

Posted 25 August 2012 - 12:35 AM   I am so flippin excited!!! Before I quit I found it difficult to go 3 hours without smoking!! Glad to be taking this journey with all of you. :D     ~Jenny
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Arrghh...

Posted 06 August 2012 - 01:21 AM   The last few days have not been the best. I am stressed due to a project at work and stress appears to be the strongest trigger for me. I go along just fine, hardly thinking about a cigarette & happy to be a non-smoker. I get little craves, but they are easy to dismiss. My only difficulty are days when the stess level goes up. It does not appear to be getting weaker either with each stressfull situation in which I do not smoke. I'm sure I have just not g
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The storm

Posted 27 July 2012 - 01:58 AM   ...And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in..." ~ Haruki Murakami   ~Jenny
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Smoking Dreams

Posted 25 July 2012 - 12:01 PM   I had a dream last night that everyone in my office was smoking---except me. They said it was too bad I had quit and could not smoke with them. What is really strange is that no one in my office smokes. It used to be just me. I felt sad when I woke up. Kind of like the early days of my quit. Still feeling a bit down which is foolish I know because it was just a dream. I have been so proud to have recently reached two months smoke free and as time goes by I feel
Jenny

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Two Months!

Posted 24 July 2012 - 01:05 AM   Today I reached two months in this journey to be smoke free. I cannot believe how fast the time has gone. I smoked one pack a day for 28yrs and thought I would be chained to it forever. I cannot believe how long it took me to quit. I am 44 years old and have had many medical issues directly related to smoking. In my mid 30's I began to experience wheezing, especially when I lay down--and still I continued to smoke. At 38 I began to have severe pain when I walke
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New

Posted 07 September 2013 - 08:20 PM Hi I am new. This is my second day. I just took the pack I had hidden in my room, wet them, and threw them away. I downloaded Alan Carr's book and have been reading .i have cravings and a headache. Strangely, i have no appetite today; I thought I would be eating to compensate...   So, I am anonsmoker.
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The beginning

Posted 07 September 2013 - 06:29 PM I had an issue and ended up in the hospital on tuesday. I ended up on the cardiac ward . They did every test for my heart and arteries and thank God they are fine. On thursday i smoked 2 cigs with an iv tower outside the ER in a hospital gown. Gross and shameful! I quit yesterday and so Day 2. I am craving craving.   My thought is that I do not want to be in a hospital again if I can help it. It is terrible. I am looking forward to breathing better and impr
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Made it to day 2

Posted 04 June 2013 - 04:49 PM   I am amazed that I made it this far! Last night was rough, had a pretty hard time falling asleep without my bedtime cigarette. Then, when I did pass out, I was woken up by coughing and every time I laid back down there it was again. By the end of yesterday, I had enough of yesterday and just wanted to sleep. I must've fallen back asleep at some point, so I did sleep some. I woke up and my patch was gone, somehow it ended up in between 2 pillows.   I'm feeling
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Almost smoked today...

Posted 15 July 2012 - 05:08 PM     Today I have been feeling stressed, overwhelmed. Dropped my kids at a friends house and on the way home was really, really craving a cigarette...drove by several stores and it was all I could do to keep driving until I made it home. I would say that it was the most powerful urge I have had since the first few days to blow my quit. Scared me....I will need to be on my toes for sure. I simply cannot smoke NO MATTER WHAT. Thanks for "listening".   ~Jenny
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Survived camping...

Posted 06 July 2012 - 01:19 AM   Just got back from camp. I was worried I would be miserable the entire time because I used to smoke a lot at camp, but it was really not that bad. A few moments of discomfort but basically had a great time with my kids and other extended family. I am fortunate that no one smokes so I did not have that to deal with---just my own thoughts---actually my time with my kids has improved so much since I quit. It makes me sad sometimes when I think of the things I miss
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1 Month!

Posted 24 June 2012 - 02:02 PM I cannot believe it has been one month already! Not to say the past few weeks were easy, but I can remember looking at the tickers of others the first few days of my quit and thinking anyone with a month or more was sooo very strong! I wanted to be just like that and now I am! I have never really tried to quit smoking before. For 28 years smoking ruled my life. I thought I would never be able to do it and now I wonder why I ever thought that? Just the addiction I
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Depressed

Posted 06 June 2012 - 09:17 PM   It has been 13 days since I quit. Using Chantix. I have spent the last 3-4 days crying, sobbing really. Seems like non stop. Went to my doc today and was advised to cut back on the chantix and she put me on Prozac...Anything to stop this crying. On the plus side I had moments today when I did not think of a cigarette. Fleeting, but still...   ~Jenny
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Found Cigarettes

Posted 09 November 2012 - 02:07 AM   My daughter age 9, found a pack of cigs in a drawer today. She was so upset thinking I was smoking again. Broke my heart to see the look on her face. Of course I am not smoking again and had no idea they were there. I told her to dunk them in water and throw them away. It was a good reminder of how much my smoking affected my kids and also a good reminder of why I need to stay quit.   ~Jenny
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A good day!

Posted 13 July 2012 - 12:32 AM   Today was a really good day. Hardly any craves at all. The 3-4 days prior to that were like one big lonnnnnggg crave. No difference that I can see in today from the other days, but I am grateful for the relief :D . I am also grateful for this board. It helps so much to be able to come here and read your experiences. At one time I truly thought that I could never quit smoking, never even tried. I am still amazed to have found that just was not true! I have quit!
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I hope this gets better soon....

Posted 01 June 2012 - 11:51 PM     8 days for me and tonight am not doing so well. I keep telling myself it will not always be this hard. I hope that's true. I've been reading posts here since before my quit. I am in awe of you all.   ~Jenny
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