1 year today.

19 days quit. I'm finding myself thinking about how to get rid of the negative feelings ie anger/uncomfortableness. I don't want to smoke but there is a part my psyche that misses it. Been using the lozenges and am wondering if that is making things worse but worried that if I stop, I'll go back to smoking. I don't miss smoking but do miss the comfort of normalcy.

My mouth hurts and this is making me angry. 

But I also know that if I keep going, then one day, these feelings will be nothing but a memory.  

If I don't keep going, then one day, I will have to figure out what I want to suck on. My cigarette or my oxygen. Or I could blow up my face with both.