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SOS 27 February 2014

The YMCA is next door to where I work, so it's lunchtime; I'll walk over and see how much the monthly fee is. My head is telling me not to spend the money because I'm going to fail. But, that doesn't have to be true. I haven't died yet from not smoking. That's all I can think about--not a thing else is in my head. Except how my body is being pulled, like gravity, to a certain direction.

Aine

Aine

27 February 2014

9 am. At work, managed to squeak through the morning coffee and cig ritual. Physical craving right now. Drinking juice and water. Almost wrecked this morning. Thinking about smoking and not paying attention! Pathetic.

Aine

Aine

Feel Stupid. . .I think I just quit?

Posted by Aine on 26 February 2014 - 04:48 PM     So, I threw away the cigs, cleaned the ashtrays, put them away, put the ecigs in the top of the closet. I've smoked for forty years, and I'm a chain smoker, 3 -4 packs a day. I don't know if I smoke all of them, but I ALWAYS have one if possible.   I'm scared to death and I don't even know why. My son just got home from school. He's 12. I don't like feeling like this.

Aine

Aine

I could smoke, but I don't smoke and repeat

I am at no risk of smoking still, that's good but I am bored senseless of this inane internal drivel, could smoke/don't smoke, that goes through my head every day. I don't even know how I would explain it but I still have the same thoughts of times when I would smoke. For sure they are less frequent then they were. For definate they are not the gut wrenching craves of days gone by and haven't been for a long time. Just like a fly really that keeps buzzing around you and getting right on your las

Still winning

Still winning

Happy To Be A Non-Smoker

Posted 05 July 2013 - 06:10 PM       Like the title says :D . I am so happy to be a non-smoker that I FINALLY threw out my ashtray. Before I quit, I made sure there were no cigarettes left. The ashtray, on the other hand I wasn't ready to get rid of so soon. You see, I don't think I believed that I could quit. I'm going to be honest and say I did not expect my quit to last even a day. "Clearly, you were wrong", says the ticker. Never have I been so happy to be wrong. It's almost like pinchin

Colleen

Colleen

Co-Worker W/14 years quit

Posted 25 November 2012 - 04:40 PM   I was talking with someone at work the other day who is quitting smoking. She is quitting after starting again in September during a stressful time. She was quit for 14 YEARS!!! I was completely blown away that she would start again after all that time. She said she is really struggling too. It was a good reminder to protect your quit at all costs. She was happy being quit. Was not even thinking about it anymore, but then was offered a cig in a crisis momen

Jenny

Jenny

Not smoking on a Holiday

Posted 22 November 2012 - 11:20 PM   I really didn't think I would feel that much different on a Holiday versus any other day.........WRONG. Beginning yesterday I have been craving a cigarette practically non stop. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!! :evil: Family dinner is done and I am thankful to be home now :) :) . It felt so strange to be with the family the whole time. Strange that I thought that was strange...!?!? No going out and hiding behind the house for a smoke. I made it through. I

Jenny

Jenny

A friend quit smoking

Posted 15 November 2012 - 01:37 AM One of my co-workers announced she had quit smoking today! I have not spoken with her much recently because the only time we really saw each other was on smoke breaks...So she announced she had quit and I was so happy for her. She has smoked about 30 years. We were talking and I was sharing with her the things I had learned here and letting her know how much better it gets (she is about 1 week quit). Then she says she is still smoking 2 cigarettes a day?! She

Jenny

Jenny

Bad day

Posted 11 November 2012 - 10:33 PM   It's been a difficult week. Had to put my Cat down a few days ago. He was nearly 17 years old but had cancer and was suffering towards the end. Of course sad and anxious times are triggers for smoking. I have chosen not to smoke no matter what---and I won't. Thanks to you all for teaching me that smoking will not help. In fact it makes things worse. Had I not had the strength of the things I have learned here there might have been a different outcome today.

Jenny

Jenny

Today

Posted 03 November 2012 - 04:53 PM Some days are just more difficult than others....Some days I miss not having the nagging anxiety a cigarette seemed to solve---until I remember that I did have anxiety when I smoked. Not sure why I did not identify it as such. So often when having a cigarette was not possible I would be crawling out of my skin until I could light up again. I remember standing out in the rain, snow, wind. Burning my clothes, car and furniture. SMELLING terrible---as my kids so

Jenny

Jenny

No smoking section

Posted 03 September 2012 - 09:44 PM   Today while doing my laundry at my mums (my washer is broken) I had to keep walking through my brothers bedroom while he was smoking...and not once did I feel a crave to smoke. I do not come face to face with smoking very often. No one in my life smokes--It was always just me... I don't know if next week I will feel differently but for today it was such a good feeling to witness him puffing away and not feel bad that I was not doing the same. I know I wi

Jenny

Jenny

Silly and selfish

I don't even know where I am - around 6 weeks quit? Anyway my quit is secure, I am solidly behind the I don't want to smoke.   So why do I still wobble emotionally?? I am gutted that two people I cared for fell off the wagon, it's so not my business!! I am gutted my mum keeps cheating, it's not my business!! When did I turn into a busybody?? It's laughable, it is the opposite of who I am. These emotions are "not me", I stay calm and in control. I look after everyone and cope...but wow, some da

Still winning

Still winning

I cannot fail this I just can't

Posted 25 June 2013 - 06:32 PM   I keep telling myself that I've made it this far and because of that I can keep on going. Not to mention, I DO NOT want to go through it all again. There are also all of the benefits I am experiencing and the ones I will soon discover. With that said, I am having an awful hard time of it.   It started about a week ago, these tests one after another. All situations that in the past I would have needed dozens of cigarettes to get through. It started with a deat

Colleen

Colleen

So this is what heck week is like...

Posted 11 June 2013 - 06:45 PM   Very similar to Hell week, just less intense. I've actually been off the patch since Saturday. While exercising, I took it off because it wouldn't stay on. I forgot about it until the next day and never put it back on. With the patch, there was really no irritability and I had trouble sleeping. Without the patch, I find myself snapping at innocent people and losing my patience quickly. I also have trouble staying awake past 9, which is odd for me - a night owl.

Colleen

Colleen

Hell Week Is Hellish

Posted 08 June 2013 - 03:20 PM   Whomever named hell week, had it right. In about 11 hours, I'll have clocked 6 days into my quit. I think what makes it so hard, is that it takes so long. Maybe this is just a huge long lesson in patience.   Random whiffs of scents that blow me away, never this strong before. The smell of fresh cut grass and the rain is awesome, my garage on the other hand is so not awesome smelling. Mornings aren't too bad anymore, much more manageable. During the week, dayt

Colleen

Colleen

Day 13

I still think about smoking but it is getting less frequent. There are only moments here and there. My breathing is still getting better every day. I am wondering when the fight will be over and I can relax. I am still waiting also to feel normal again. This I am sure will take some time to undo 35 years of being abnormal. I am still very happy about my decision to be a non smoker I think I just have to get comfortable with this and learn how to snuggle up.

Amy

Amy

3 months quit!!!

Posted 25 August 2012 - 12:35 AM   I am so flippin excited!!! Before I quit I found it difficult to go 3 hours without smoking!! Glad to be taking this journey with all of you. :D     ~Jenny

Jenny

Jenny

Arrghh...

Posted 06 August 2012 - 01:21 AM   The last few days have not been the best. I am stressed due to a project at work and stress appears to be the strongest trigger for me. I go along just fine, hardly thinking about a cigarette & happy to be a non-smoker. I get little craves, but they are easy to dismiss. My only difficulty are days when the stess level goes up. It does not appear to be getting weaker either with each stressfull situation in which I do not smoke. I'm sure I have just not g

Jenny

Jenny

The storm

Posted 27 July 2012 - 01:58 AM   ...And once the storm is over, you won't remember how you made it through, how you managed to survive. You won't even be sure, in fact, whether the storm is really over. But one thing is certain. When you come out of the storm you won't be the same person who walked in..." ~ Haruki Murakami   ~Jenny

Jenny

Jenny

Smoking Dreams

Posted 25 July 2012 - 12:01 PM   I had a dream last night that everyone in my office was smoking---except me. They said it was too bad I had quit and could not smoke with them. What is really strange is that no one in my office smokes. It used to be just me. I felt sad when I woke up. Kind of like the early days of my quit. Still feeling a bit down which is foolish I know because it was just a dream. I have been so proud to have recently reached two months smoke free and as time goes by I feel

Jenny

Jenny

Two Months!

Posted 24 July 2012 - 01:05 AM   Today I reached two months in this journey to be smoke free. I cannot believe how fast the time has gone. I smoked one pack a day for 28yrs and thought I would be chained to it forever. I cannot believe how long it took me to quit. I am 44 years old and have had many medical issues directly related to smoking. In my mid 30's I began to experience wheezing, especially when I lay down--and still I continued to smoke. At 38 I began to have severe pain when I walke

Jenny

Jenny

New

Posted 07 September 2013 - 08:20 PM Hi I am new. This is my second day. I just took the pack I had hidden in my room, wet them, and threw them away. I downloaded Alan Carr's book and have been reading .i have cravings and a headache. Strangely, i have no appetite today; I thought I would be eating to compensate...   So, I am anonsmoker.

beacon

beacon

The beginning

Posted 07 September 2013 - 06:29 PM I had an issue and ended up in the hospital on tuesday. I ended up on the cardiac ward . They did every test for my heart and arteries and thank God they are fine. On thursday i smoked 2 cigs with an iv tower outside the ER in a hospital gown. Gross and shameful! I quit yesterday and so Day 2. I am craving craving.   My thought is that I do not want to be in a hospital again if I can help it. It is terrible. I am looking forward to breathing better and impr

beacon

beacon

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