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Having a hard time today Day 10

10 days? I think, anyway. Off and on all day just want to smoke so bad. As I write this, it occurred to me that the two occasions I have tried to quit in the past I made it to 10 days. Hmm. Just really want to not do this anymore. Found myself walking closer to someone that was smoking today. Geez. Eyes catching the cigarette butts wondering if they were long enough. Just sad, sad, sad. lol.   Gonna go walk. With ice water.     Frank, on 07 Mar 2014 - 3:01 PM, said:   Not yet. But I reme
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Day 8

Finally found out why everyone says cut your caffeine intake in half. . .lol! So not so much sleep last night, but my own fault. At least one rooster was awake before me this morning. Driving to work was not too bad as far as triggers. I have had to do new stuff with the driving. I am not hauling out the thermos of coffee plus my cigs and lighter in preparation for the 30 minute drive to work. Turns out I really only wanted the coffee in order to help the cigarettes taste better. I don't know if
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Day 7

Again, with the chickens. . .7 straight hours of sleep, and the new litter box seems to be controlling the neurotic cat's need to scratch through to the next room. So, cat still lives. There seems to be the occasional discussion here on the Quit Smoking board over the attributes of cats vs. dogs. Observation this morning was that, while cats play with their poop, dogs eat cat poop. I don't know what that means, however. lol.   Was pretty anxious and restless for much of the day. Finally went h
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Day 6

04 March 2014 - 06:57 AM   Still here. My lifetime insomnia seems to be missing right now. Happy about that. Fell into bed at 10 pm last night and I am again waiting for the chickens to wake. Less twitchy this morning than yesterday and I am going back to work today after 3 long snow days at home. Looking forward to it cause this sitting around is tedious. Eating all these veggies and hummus stalled off any weight gain so far. This is one of my BIG fears with quitting. I am willing to accept s
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Day 5 March 3rd

Sleeping on the couch for the last few nights. Twitchy and restless. Our neurotic cat, Greta, or "Fatty" as the rest of the family affectionately calls her, began the hour long ritual of scratching in the litter box. Hour. A very long time.   So, I didn't throw her against the wall. I just visualized. So, staring out the dark window waiting for the roosters to start crowing. Literally. We have chickens and they are still asleep. Stupid cat.   My coffee tastes good. Better than usual. However
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Day 4

This is hard. It aint "easy peazy." And I confess to feelings of shame and guilt because I'm not peeing pink sparkly balloons. I'll just keep reading and keep not smoking.   Years ago I sold plasma in order to get money. You have to have a blood pressure with a top number over 100, so I would tell the nurse, "wait a minute." I'd think about my guaranteed student loans from college, and then I'd tell here, "take it now." Everytime, I was able to get it up to over 100. hehahhahe!   So, forced
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Day 3

My blood pressure is about 96/58 pre quit and now is a couple points. Lower at 94 or something yesterday and pulse rose in the last 3 years from the normal of 68 or so to about 96 average, knew that wasn't good. Blood sugar needs stabilized during the first couple of months from what I've read and I am doing what they told me to do here--drink juice regularly throuout the day. Only one dizzy spell really. Important to drink water too. Taking care of the physical needs right now is something I am
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Aine 66 hours

But who's counting, right?   Woke up at 5:30 am, filled with energy, some ability to focus, and no coughing up my lungs. I absolutely hate it. Why would I want to be up this early? I,m bored and restless and my addiction is saying   Don't tell your mother you quit. You won't be so embarrassed when you smoke again. It doesn't matter that you lost a pound yesterday. You know you're going to gain at least 30 pounds. I don't want to live another 20 years.   So....   I am obviously insane b
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28 February 2014 - 11:14 AM

Not getting any work done, so I will walk to the gym. This time, I will take wallet. Yes, a plan. There are no cigarettes from here to there, so. . .should be safe. Right. Don't yell at anyone. Sigh.
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27 February 2014 - 08:44 PM

Was in the restaurant tonight and smelled smoke. Smelled so good. Got into my car and smelled it. Smelled bad. All I can think about right now. Tried twenty years ago to quit, twice, made it both times ten days, but the obsessional thinking never went away and I thought it never would so I gave up. I'm reading, reading, when I can; everybody is saying that will go away. . . .just typing now. It's just minute by minute right now. . .
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SOS 27 February 2014

The YMCA is next door to where I work, so it's lunchtime; I'll walk over and see how much the monthly fee is. My head is telling me not to spend the money because I'm going to fail. But, that doesn't have to be true. I haven't died yet from not smoking. That's all I can think about--not a thing else is in my head. Except how my body is being pulled, like gravity, to a certain direction.
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27 February 2014

9 am. At work, managed to squeak through the morning coffee and cig ritual. Physical craving right now. Drinking juice and water. Almost wrecked this morning. Thinking about smoking and not paying attention! Pathetic.
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Feel Stupid. . .I think I just quit?

Posted by Aine on 26 February 2014 - 04:48 PM     So, I threw away the cigs, cleaned the ashtrays, put them away, put the ecigs in the top of the closet. I've smoked for forty years, and I'm a chain smoker, 3 -4 packs a day. I don't know if I smoke all of them, but I ALWAYS have one if possible.   I'm scared to death and I don't even know why. My son just got home from school. He's 12. I don't like feeling like this.
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Marti's Blog

I could smoke, but I don't smoke and repeat

I am at no risk of smoking still, that's good but I am bored senseless of this inane internal drivel, could smoke/don't smoke, that goes through my head every day. I don't even know how I would explain it but I still have the same thoughts of times when I would smoke. For sure they are less frequent then they were. For definate they are not the gut wrenching craves of days gone by and haven't been for a long time. Just like a fly really that keeps buzzing around you and getting right on your las
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Colleen's Blog

Happy To Be A Non-Smoker

Posted 05 July 2013 - 06:10 PM       Like the title says :D . I am so happy to be a non-smoker that I FINALLY threw out my ashtray. Before I quit, I made sure there were no cigarettes left. The ashtray, on the other hand I wasn't ready to get rid of so soon. You see, I don't think I believed that I could quit. I'm going to be honest and say I did not expect my quit to last even a day. "Clearly, you were wrong", says the ticker. Never have I been so happy to be wrong. It's almost like pinchin
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Jenny's Blog

Co-Worker W/14 years quit

Posted 25 November 2012 - 04:40 PM   I was talking with someone at work the other day who is quitting smoking. She is quitting after starting again in September during a stressful time. She was quit for 14 YEARS!!! I was completely blown away that she would start again after all that time. She said she is really struggling too. It was a good reminder to protect your quit at all costs. She was happy being quit. Was not even thinking about it anymore, but then was offered a cig in a crisis momen
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Not smoking on a Holiday

Posted 22 November 2012 - 11:20 PM   I really didn't think I would feel that much different on a Holiday versus any other day.........WRONG. Beginning yesterday I have been craving a cigarette practically non stop. I hate it, I hate it, I hate it!!! :evil: Family dinner is done and I am thankful to be home now :) :) . It felt so strange to be with the family the whole time. Strange that I thought that was strange...!?!? No going out and hiding behind the house for a smoke. I made it through. I
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A friend quit smoking

Posted 15 November 2012 - 01:37 AM One of my co-workers announced she had quit smoking today! I have not spoken with her much recently because the only time we really saw each other was on smoke breaks...So she announced she had quit and I was so happy for her. She has smoked about 30 years. We were talking and I was sharing with her the things I had learned here and letting her know how much better it gets (she is about 1 week quit). Then she says she is still smoking 2 cigarettes a day?! She
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Bad day

Posted 11 November 2012 - 10:33 PM   It's been a difficult week. Had to put my Cat down a few days ago. He was nearly 17 years old but had cancer and was suffering towards the end. Of course sad and anxious times are triggers for smoking. I have chosen not to smoke no matter what---and I won't. Thanks to you all for teaching me that smoking will not help. In fact it makes things worse. Had I not had the strength of the things I have learned here there might have been a different outcome today.
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Today

Posted 03 November 2012 - 04:53 PM Some days are just more difficult than others....Some days I miss not having the nagging anxiety a cigarette seemed to solve---until I remember that I did have anxiety when I smoked. Not sure why I did not identify it as such. So often when having a cigarette was not possible I would be crawling out of my skin until I could light up again. I remember standing out in the rain, snow, wind. Burning my clothes, car and furniture. SMELLING terrible---as my kids so
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No smoking section

Posted 03 September 2012 - 09:44 PM   Today while doing my laundry at my mums (my washer is broken) I had to keep walking through my brothers bedroom while he was smoking...and not once did I feel a crave to smoke. I do not come face to face with smoking very often. No one in my life smokes--It was always just me... I don't know if next week I will feel differently but for today it was such a good feeling to witness him puffing away and not feel bad that I was not doing the same. I know I wi
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Marti's Blog

Silly and selfish

I don't even know where I am - around 6 weeks quit? Anyway my quit is secure, I am solidly behind the I don't want to smoke.   So why do I still wobble emotionally?? I am gutted that two people I cared for fell off the wagon, it's so not my business!! I am gutted my mum keeps cheating, it's not my business!! When did I turn into a busybody?? It's laughable, it is the opposite of who I am. These emotions are "not me", I stay calm and in control. I look after everyone and cope...but wow, some da
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